The Deathly Dengue : Jinxing The Jinxed !

Suatu pengalaman yang meresahkan telah saya lalui. Agak lama tidak menulis dalam ruangan blog kerana masalah kesihatan yang membantut rutin harian. Lately, i’ve been going back and fro to one place and another and really, who could have thought that in these very midst of hullaballoos and shennanigans, I would be contracting demam denggi?!

Last weekeend, saya, ayah dan mak sekeluarga ke Bangi melawat kakak while me memang dah prepare my baju-baju and office attires, paraphernalias,etc untuk dipindahkan ke rumah kakak and planned to stay sana sampai hari bekerja bermula 1 Ogos. On the 23rd July, I was scheduled to amik surat offer AFFIN Bank but i didnt go instead pada hari yang sama saya menghadiri temuduga jawatan Pegawai Tadbir USIM N41 di Nilai. Tak sangka plak pagi tuh rasa sengal2x dan kurang selesa yg disangka  demam biasa was actually a symptom of dengue. Luckily, I decided to ikut my parents to come back to Jitra ni instead of lepak kat Bangi for a week there! Goodness knows what would have happened! Sampai Kedah kami pergi ke klinik swasta for three times (3 hari berasingan!) sebelum simptom2x dengi mula kelihatan (mainly, demam saya tak kebah altho dah abis antibiotik dimakan. Red spots tak kelihatan lagi masa tuh); akhirnya got a referal letter and admitted to Hospital Jitra.

Pelbagai ujian detetction dilakukan including a H-Test to make the red spots visible. Pada masa tu memang tangan saya agak merah dengan red spots (simptom denggi). Saya sangat takut dan berdoa kepada Allah SWT supaya at least it wasn’t denggi berdarah coz denggi berdarah is lethal. It could do damages to organs and even brains….Ya Allah!~ Nonetheless, denggi pun is no fun at all.  2 nights i cannout consume anything orally (selera pun tak terbangkit) sebab asyik muntah. Plain water is repelled from my body and it seems that virus controlled my nerves system dan immunology sistem.

Because I was always regurgitate all the medicinal dosages given to me, the nurses then gave me ubat tahan loya (nausea) thru injection. Badan saya juga dimasukkan tiub air ‘dripping’ untuk mengelakkan dari dehidrasi; sebanyak lebih kurang 11 botol disalurkan; setiap satunya berjumlah 500cc air; sepanjang tempoh 5 hari di Hospital Jitra. Malam memang tak boleh tidor dengan selesa sebab saya selalu mengalami nightmares dan merepek (carried away from dreams). Memang sudah sedia maklum bahawa pesakit denggi akan mengalami racauan pada malam hari,etc.

Walaupun ini pengalaman perit dan pertama kali saya tinggal di hospital, tapi saya berkenalan dengan ramai individu yg baik hati especially Mak Teh, an active 50 something woman who always helped me to get my things dome when I couldn’t and Makcik A yang always buat lawak2x merapu. Mak Teh was there to take care of her husband suffering from ketumbuhan perut while Makcik A’s husband is diagnosed with kencing manis, sakit jantung,demam,etc. Saya juga berkesempatan menyaksikan suatu kematian di Unit Rawatan Kecemasan tersebut pada hari ke-3 saya berada di Hospital Jitra. Pada masa itu, barulah kita sangat2x berkehendakkan kesihatan yang Tuhan berikan pada kita yg selalunya kita take for granted.

Saya masih lagi letih dan belum pulih sepenuhnya lagi. Catatan ini saya abadikan sebagai prasasti inskripsi pengalaman saya bahawa kesihatan merupakan suatu nikmat yg tidak ternilai dikurniakan Allah SWT kepada kita.

And Oh yeah, I would like to express my apreciation and thanks to ayah and mak for taking care of me (i’m so touched). Ayah, thanks for taking care of me bermalam kat Hospital bersama-sama and being a patient person towards any grumblings or tantrums; and Mak thanks for everything u’ve done. In a way, I’m felt partially blessed for being pampered (in certain occasion je la) and I really appreciate this. Thank you Mak & Ayah. And to my family and friends as well: MUCHAS GRACIAS!

What Goes Around Comes Around : Karma & Drama

When The Sun Shines We’ll Shine Together. Told You I Would Be Here Forever. That I Will Always Be Your Friend. Took An Oath Lmma Stick It Out Till The End.

Whew~! Agak lama juga saya tak menjengah blog. Tak berkesempatan. Bulan Julai dan Ogos mmg akan agak sibuk dengan ‘future alignments’ dan urusan untuk konvo. There were myriads of things happened sepanjang my hiatus in writting blog ni. Where do I begin?

On fateful 11th of July, I went down to Penang (AHH, it was so good  to be back in Penang ,inhaling the breeze of tropical island!! My State! You can take me outta Penang but you can never take Penang outta me y’all!~) to catch filem "Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix" with Kat (premiere day tu) after a back-to-back movie "Transformers" (Okla..not bad). OH MY GOD! The director David Yates mmg telah ‘menyeramkan’ visual dalam filem Harry Potter dan jalan ceritanya is one of the most honest adaptasi daripada novel. Bagi saya (dan Naz) yg merupakan peminat berat Harry Potter, filem ke-5 ni mmg tak mengecewakan dan saya bagi 5 bintang outta 5 stars!~ Well, opinions might differed bagi peminat yg tak fanatik dgn Harry Potter but what can u say?! Can’t wait for the release novel "Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows" Sabtu ni (21st July)! Anyway, it was nice getaway dengan Kat; reminiscing those good ole days of Doncha Club; karaoke-ing (Kat, i still owe u la..hehee)! Too bad Efy tak join us… Doncha rules!~ Anyway, thanks to dear friend Muzem yg sudi tumpangkan me for a night! Kinda envy him having a tempat tinggal dekat plak ngan tempat keja kat USM tu (hehe). Neeway, I would like to extend my appreciation to both Kat & Muzem for making my day worthwhile in Penang. Kat for the Doncha-ness reliving and Muzem for the encouraging advices! Thanks People!~

On Saturday, pushed off to KL around 11.15pm.Sampai Pudu 6am lebey. The AFFIN BANK interview was on 17th (Selasa) at Menara Affin, Jalan Raja Chulan. The journey was somewhat tiresome gakla; at least for Abg Zam. First, we pushed off to Putrajaya to hantar my sis and nephew with car. Sampai sana, Abg Zam and me naik motor plak to KL. Jauh gakla; approximately half an hour trip (speed la; kalao me bawak I think lambat la). Abg Zam dropped me at Menara Weld (which happened to be a shopping mall tepi Menara Affin). We had an English debate (which I am kinda nervous but managed to fake that nervousness) that day as final interview stage. I had a blast day and enjoyed my experience to the max. After that, had luncheon with Regina, Rina, Muna and Nik at Menara Weld and we just being so loud chatting in the cafetaria (teringat plak zaman Doncha)! I have to admit that we felt like we are part of the PROFFESIONAL WORLD – goin out for lunch with office attire and reliving the hustle-bustle life of metropolitan world (kan dalam cerita Ally Mcbeal; like everyone was so bz walking tepi2x jalan, crossing roads, with their offices attires and briefcases, etc).

Since Abg Zam balik pukul 5pm, initially the plan was to ‘dump’ me at KLCC. But luckily Rina plak free masa tu so I asked her to accompany aka tour guide me to KLCC. Together with Muna we headed to KLCC walking. It was nice exploring the heart of KL by walking. No biggie for me sbb Donchas always walk dulu (influent by Kat la..heeh). Hangout for a while and I then boarded Putra-lrt to Menara Tabung Haji at Ampang Park (luckily penah naik sebelum ni. dah tau la hehe). That night jugak Miss Nadia called me informing that I have been accepted to join the Affin Programme! aka MADE THE FINAL CUT OUTTA 2000 APPLICANTS.~ I am scheduled to start the programme on 1st August 2007. Alhamdulillah!

Nak balik Kedah malam tu juga coz on Thursday (today) ada exam cikgu Inggeris MRSM (oh, KPLI i didnt get; but I applied rayuan) kat MRSM Merbok. Nak dijadikan cerita Allah menduga kesabaran; tiket ke Jitra dibeli masa tuh pukul 10.30 malam di Pudu tetapi naik di Hentian Putra bertarikh 19/7/2007 sedangkan malam tu 17/7/2007! Saya hanya sedar bila ditunjukkan oleh penjaga kaunter lelaki yg BITCHY GILOS (memang babi this guy!) yg tarikh adalah silap! saya agak bengang + panik jugakla sebab penting sgt balik mlm tuh. Last2x Abg Zam reason with that STINKING BITHCY GUY & the officer, boley tukar tiket ke Alor Star mlm tu. Baki Rm3.00 dikira hangus! Geram betul sbb bukannya salah kitaorang; tapi silap lah jugak sebab tak check betul2x. In the end, Alhamdulillah sampailah di Alor Star.

Cliche as the saying ‘What Goes Around Comes Around", banyak offer datang silih berganti bila ada peluang yg me-reject kita. Ada lagi beberapa offer selain dripada yg telah saya sebutkan di atas tapi apa2pun, saya bersyukur kepada Allah SWT bahwa at least secure one chance of becoming a working citizen. I understand what my sis meant about my mom’s anxiety; saya tahu yg laluan untuk saya memang susah berbanding org lain due to my personality and superficial outlook. Tapi saya takkan mengalah. I’m a fighter for myself and I always look high upon myself (but i’m not snooty or snobbish!). It’s a cruel world out there and I have to charm all those boring ugly professional people out there one-by-one, Insya Allah. (dramatic haha) . Saya berharap saya dapat menyesuaikan diri dengan new environment perkerjaan tu nanti. =)

Now That It’s Raining More Than Ever. Know That We Still Have Each Other. You Can Stand Under My Umbrella.

* "Umbrella" by Robyn Rihanna is a song I dedicate to all my faithful frieds who have been supportive to me through my ups & downs. The lyric is so meaningful (tak guna kalao asyik nyanyi lagu tapi tak paham makna lirik-lirik lagu tuh) about a friend who stick up to the sanctity of friendship throughout the ’sunny’ and ‘rainy’ days of life! I am always a loyal friend and I appreciate friends who appreciate me. But I also discard friends who forget me.

The KL Endeavour : Assessment. Beyond-Say Experience.

Satu Harapan Membara & Menyala. Kan Menyinari PerjalananKu. Sejauh Langit Biru Takkan Ku Berpatah Arang.

Although initially I had a ‘premature goosebump’ (refer to the before entry), I’m so glad that I chose to come to KL when everything  happened! Although undeniably the journey was intense with bickerings and lotsa serpent tongue-ed moments but eventually everything went well. Sikit2x masalah tu aderla tapi semua berjalan dgn baik. The initial plan that saya akan charter a taxi at Menara Tabung Haji was scrapped due to :-

1) The urgence of my mom that my sis shud hantar me coz she was scare at the idea of me boarding the taxi alone;

2) KL was no overly crowded aka traffic jam; masih boleh lg squeeze in ke dalam Golden Triangle tu

Anyway, although i’m kinda uncomfortable about the idea of taking the taxi alove (becouase taxi drivers in KL are known for their notorious cutthroating of the greenhorn passengers’ money); I was willing to try that if Kakak tak sempat masuk office. Anyway, Ayah managed to drop me at a walking distance nearby the hotel. The turnout for the AFFIN BANK assessment turned out to be quite a number!Out of 2000 applicants, we rae the so-called 200 shortlisted la. People came all throughout Malaysia and I had the chance to meet new people ; Hafiz the Johorean card credit salesman, his friend Azizul, Shuhaimi the Kedahan-now-resides-in-KL-for-almost-9 months, Zalina, the Bank Trainees aficianado Gombak girl, the UM’s microbiology student Tan, Perakian Sime Darby trainee Gopi, etc. We were clicked and enjoyed each others’ companion like we had known each others’ for ages.

Sebenarnya peringkat saringan yg dilakukan adalah seperti PTD; peringkat assesment yg saya pegi ni mainly all about essay writings, public speaking, case studies; all conducted and   supposedly composed in English. Kalau berjaya baru dipanggil interview. The truth, saya taknak mengharap sangat sepertimana yg telah saya lakukan dalam PTD. Tapi yg pasti, I enjoyed myself seperti assesment PTD and I’m being honest; menjadi diri sendiri. Kalaopun saya takda rezeki, saya mmg gembira dapat menimba new experience dan met new people! Sempatlah jugak did pavement walking masa nak pegi Solat Jumaat kat Masjid Jalan Hang Tuah with Shuhaimi who happened to be a very nice person to rely on. I guess the connection of Kedah brought the sense of bond (hehe). Anyway, I had the chance to have tete-a-tete with AFFIN BANK’s Chief HR Officer, Encik Ahmad Ghuzal Mohd Tahir and some of the officers and of course Mr Majid, the officer who called me bgtau inteview tu (yg last 2 weeks tu) yg keep making a friendly gesture, which is cool !

According to the initial plan, the assesment patutnya habis pukul 6pm tapi dipercepatkan pukul 4pm. Agak menjadi masalah for me since Kakak keluar office 5pm lebih and her presence is compulsory sbb nak jadi penunjuk jalan to my father (Ayah tak tau jalan in KL). But an offer from Shuhaimi I couldn’t resist menyebabkan I opt for another alternative memudahkan semuanya. He asked me to join him naik monorel dan komuter since we are to lead to the same path; his in Bandar Salak Selatan while I could turun at Serdang. Since I’m in no position of passing any chance of exploring this new world on my own, I accepted the offer. Shuhaimi became a tour guide-sorta and explained all the neccesary things when travelling by public transportation ni. At KL Sentral he showed me places I could opt kalou2x nak datang sendiri (restrooms,railway stations,etc) and he even belanja komuter’s tiket ke Serdang! Thanks Shuhaimi!~

I know these trasncription sounds exaggerating but you have to understand I’m a newbie in KL. So by discovering new things make me liberated and happy that I dont have to bother my family and at least could travel on my own ass (provided someone showed me la mula2x tu camna nak travel kan?). Memang memorable jugaklah perjalanan ke KL kali ni and my dearly nephew Rifqi pun dah semakin rotund! Hahha, dah pandai dah tersengih (tapi kalao throw tantrum tu parah la!). Andd Oh, I met up with Naz kat Putrajaya masa nak amik Kakak. Nice to see him as a PTD (jeles nyer..hehe) and rupanya dekat sgt his office ngan my sis (opposite). And we also ambik Abg zam from his training-to-Haji hub at Tabung Haji’s Kelana Jaya. Me and Ayah balik ke Kedah, boarding the 10pm bus and it was nice to have road trip ngan ayah since this was his first time balik guna bas. On whole, it was a beyond-say experience!~

Harapan Ku Membawa Kaki Melangkah. Melakar Rasa Kehadirannya. Kan Terpahat Namaku Di Ingatan Mu.

P/s : Lagu "Satu Harapan" by Jaclyn Victor which happened to be the first song I heard after the PTD-fallen out etched an emotional boost for me in all this hullabaloo. Never like her voice but this song is melodically and lyrically powerful! Hate to admit but this song did make me cry and bersemangat to menghadapi these rainy days because of it’s powerful lyric.

* NOTIFICATION UPDATES :

AFFIN Bank Officer Miss Nadia called me just now informing that I’ve made the cut for the interview! Alhamdulillah. It’s scheduled to be on either 16th or 17th but flexible upon further confirmation. To all my friends and family, thanks for all the prayers and soothing words !

Premature Goosebumps.

Tomorrow will be the day of the interview. I’m in CC near Bandar Baru Bangi Seksyen 7 now coz i’m to look upon the profile of AFFIN BANK. Frankly, there are a lot of things in my mind now. Recent bickering over transportations and scarece-of-money literally make everyone so temperamental. I’m now not sure whther i’m excited over the idea of living here anymore. The living cost is expensive and I dunno… And tomorrow, I’m goin to take taxi alone which is a big deal for me. I’m goin to be independent. Kinda scary actually and I have to be in Royale Bintang for like practically the whole day : 9am till 6pm. I dunno now…mixture feeling. Met Naz just now at Putrajaya ( will elaborate later).. Maybe this is just the normal goosebumps people always getting when to endeavor to a new place. Frankly, I’m so scare but I guess just have to take easy. It’s no biggie if I dont make fuss about this isnt it? I have to really prove my ass that I can make it… Pray for me everyone.

AFFIN Bank Trainee : Banking On The Bank? ESPRIT Wannabe Intern?

I Don’t Know Where I Belong. But I Will Be Moving On. If You Don’t. If You Won’t.

Around last 2 weeks, I did get a call from a Human Resource Officer of AFFIN Bank about my application as their management trainee. After a brief bla- bla-bla, the officer said I sorta ’stand a chance to join them’. Hurm, I was not really banking on that ’cause I have learnt that there must be a lot of people out there who are more deserving than me ( a lesson I learnt from my PTD fallen-out).

Anyway, exactly today, the officer called me and said I have been shortlisted and asked which day I could attend the interview + this Wednesday, Thursday or Friday. I was quite anticipating about this but not too excited ‘coz who knows, spoilers could overturn this (like my overprotection fiasco). Anyway, told my sis and she said just come and we will manage later. Frankly, now is kinda bad timing ‘coz Abg Zam pun dok menghadiri kursus Haji; but Kakak said just try dulu la datang to KL. Anyway, ayah already in KL to babysit Rifqi…

The so-called interview is supposed to be held at Royale Bintang Hotel, Jalan Bukit Bintang (next to Federal Hotel); according to the instruction yg diberi la. I’ve been told it’s not gonnna be a one person-per se inteview but a group assesment. Geez, sounds so PTD!. Ouuch! Nonetheless, bagus lah jugak kalao jadi pegi utk timba pengalaman inteview daripada duduk terperap kat sini. Nak kena buka sikit horizon minda ni. Apa-apa pun, hope boleh pergi. Most probably push off from Kedah to KL on Wednesday kot. Insya Allah~ It’s gonna be me alone for the road trip!~ Scary gak ‘coz before this I had Kat & Ween to teman me.… hehhe..Time for the coccoon to be a chrysalis.

P/S : Everytime I have to ikut my kata hati, lagu "Listen" by Beyonce always make my spirit soars~

*  NOTIFICATION UPDATES :

Whoa!~ Bila panggilan interview datang, datang sekaligus pula. Just check my email saying I’m ’shortlisted’ for interview Trainee Manager Forum-Link Sdn. Bhd kat Menara MAA, Jalan Argyl, Penang! (BOLEH CAYA KE NI??) Hurm, too bad, I’m goin to KL on that day. Hurm…

And today plak (Tuesday) people from ESPRIT called me and said that they would like me to attend an interview at One Utama, west wing side at Starbuck on Thursday! Darn! At first I was thinking kinda cool to go two interviews since dah ada kat KL but then masalah with my father plak. Bising sebab dia tak tau jalan la, transportation la. Furthermore, my sis pun x penah pegi lagi although she knows where is at. I looked on the website and kinda far from my sis’s place. Looks like have to say Adios ESPRIT!~

Expecto Patronum !!! Harry Potter’s On For All July.

The Dark Lord Will Mark Him As His Equal, But He Will Have Power The Dark Lord Knows Not… And Either Must Die At The Hand Of The Other For Neither Can Live While The Other Survives.

This coming July will witness the unleashing of Harry Potters’ merchandises = The 5th film and the 7th (last) novel!!

The film will be premiered on the fateful 11th of July and the novel will be released on 21st July. The film, entitled " Harry Potter & The Order Of The Phoenix" is set to chronicles around the adolescent life of Harry. In this film, you will see Harry in his emotional upheavel and inner turbulence. He is temperamental and aggressive towards slandering or any restrictions set by the adults. In this film, the Good Force led by Dumbledore is setting up an organization called "Dumbledore’s Army", an aspiration to topple the spreading reigning of Evil Force of Lord Voldermort. Audiences would learn more about Harry’s godfather, Sirius and his pure blood heritage and of course his old manor, No. 12 Grimmauld Place. A new introduction of casts like the evil girlish sounded but toad-like faced Inquisitor Dolores Umbridge, the ever ethereal raddish-earing girl Luna "loony" Lovegood and the evil house elf, Kreacher  definitely will be an additional flavour to the mythical realms of Harry Potter!! There will also be a first kiss of Harry Potter and the first kiss is set to be with the girl he has been harboring crush for ages, Cho Chang! With A-list British actors like Ralph Fieness (Lord Voldermort) and Helena Bonham Carter (Bellatrix Lestrange), this 5th installment of Harry Potter’s silver screen depiction is estimated to be a hit like its predecessors.

Come 21st July, Harry Potter’s last novel, "Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows" will be released. I’ve already pre-ordered at POPULAR ALOR SETAR (thanks ayah for sponsoring it!). This last novel will answer kalaedeiscope of questions. Adakah Snape sejahat yang disangka? Adakah Harry akan mati atau Voldermort? Rumors has it that Harry will not complete pengajian at Hogwarts School but terus menjejaki untuk membunuh Lord Voldermort! OH MY GOD! I’m so thrilled and can hardly wait! …Still remember dulu pegi ngan Naz collected Harry Potter novels kat BJ . Nostalgic. And now he has a job and i’m still jobless. Sucks ain’t it? Hhehe…

At least Harry Potter becomes a remedial for me, alleviating my anxiety about jobs and everything. I’m just taking everything easy. Planning of coming down to Penang for the premiere!~ Insya Allah.