2nd Attachment @ Contract Financing

I Will Be Your Best Friend And You Will Be My Valentine. You Can Hold My Hands If You Want To..And I Wanna Hold Yours Too.

Today starting 2nd attachment @ Contract Financing Department. For the first half of the day ni, quite membosankan. But so far my mentor has been OK. Still batuk2x..I donno why lately semua org batuk2x; due to the heat I suppose. And Yeah, I’m kinda put off a little bit today coz I feel like someone’s angry with me and kinda sombre to me. Erm…..=(

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So far, i think i have learnt quite a lot in the Contract Financing Department. My mentor and sub mentors have been helpful and I ‘ve learnt some technical applications essential in the banking loan procedures. Yesterday, i was giving task to gather informations on a client to verify the validity of the lists of shareholders and directors of the company. Hhaha, I hope if my colleagues who happen to read these won’t laugh at me!~ I just feel liberated for having the chance of doing something new! I’m also in a process getting my Credit Approval Memorandum @ review done. There are lots of new things I have learnt.

On the other side, I feel like a friend of mine is being reclusive towards me @ angry. I dunno why? I told Kakak about it and I hate having this Sensitive Radar. I can actually tell if anyone like me or not; comfortable with my presence or not. But of course as a person who is being brought up in the House of Communication (courtesy of my father who is a very GOOD communicator. He can charm anyone!); I tend to pretend as if I’m Ok with everything, smiling all the way. Ai…I donno la. Back in my USM years dulu, I will CONFRONT those who yg I rasa alienating me. But now, I’m trying to control my emotional temper. Trying to be more patient….erm =(

We’ll Be Playmates And Lovers And Share Our Secret World…

Snow On The Sahara

This debut English track by Anggun (the first Asian artiste to penetrate Billboard chart with a debut!) recorded in the year 1997 brings myriads of reminiscence to me. I never embrace the lyric before this and now I have read the lyric, it amazes me how beautiful the lyric of the song. Anyway, this song has personal value for me these days; especially in this very state of thoughts=). You can hear the song in my Friendster & Myspace page!

`"SNOW ON THE SAHARA" by Anggun C. Sasmi.`

Only tell me that you still want me here
When you wander off out there
To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
In that dry white ocean alone

Lost out in the desert
you are lost out in the desert

But to stand with you in a ring of fire
I’ll forget the days gone by
I’ll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight

Lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I’ll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

If that’s the only place where you can leave your doubts
I’ll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

Just a wish and i will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold
When the shadows come and darken your heart
Leaving you with regrets so cold

Lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I’ll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

If that’s the only place where you can leave your doubts
I’ll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the sahara

Failed PTD. Sentimental On AFFIN. Where Is The Love?. Ain’t That Innocent.

Well, I FAILED the second attempt for PTD. Aiyah, this time I do’nt even pass the first exam. Not really sad by that ‘coz I did not have proper time to mengkaji and revise the book Kewarganegaraan tu sebab was busy with the hectic schedule went back and fro to KL-Kedah-Penang due to Convocation and shifting residence masa ujian tu diadakan..but sedey la sket sebab tak bleh nak compete ngan kakak, Kat and Naz joining the PTD league (coz im a competitive green eyed monster!). I guess I will try it next time (next year ke tu?).. Tapi sebenarnya dah rasa seronok la plak kat AFFIN ni ‘coz my colleagues are nice lots dan i will definitely miss all of them kalau lah dapat keja mana2x…ai.. Apa2pun, takda rezeki..I will try next time!~ Anyway, maybe next week ader second attachment tentang Trade Finance kat Department Contract Finance. Whew~!

Anyway, this week Malaysia is rudely awaken by the identity confirmation of the body of a 8-years old girl found stuffed in a sporty bag. It was the girl Nurul Jazlin who was reportedly missing from her house early this month. It was defintely a gruesome case (I ain’t gonna elaborate here) and it really saddens me that Malaysian nowadays could be so ruthless. Where’s The Love? I pray her soul will rest in peace. Erm, next week ader 2d attachment kat Contract Finance. I hope everything will do well there. And Oh speaking of well; I had a ‘coily’ moment last night with my boo (SMS jer la). Frankly speaking, I donno how this gonna work; far distanced is not my thing although I can consider myself as a very loyal lover (ahaks!). But well..I’m opening myself to any other possibilities here. Not single but available. Haks!~ And ohh yeah, I’m gonna get my Creme Brulee GOOD!!! =p  (Definitely a Creme Brulee although once in a while it becomes Jelly-O!!! There’s no way to escape; i’m gonna getcha good.)

And one more thing; I always have this funny thing arisen whenever I’m in a new atmosphere. People always labelled me as a good boy. Ahaks!~ Well, I don’t deny that I’m a good child at heart but well…hahaha!~ Yesterday, Mr Dass make an example out of me in a lecture upon Michael Porter’s 5 Force (Business thingies. Check it out in internet!). He said

• Shahrill seems like a good boy. But who knows what he’s being doing during the weekends, who he’s hanging out with? What is he doing?

- HARK!~ I have to confess I was a lil’ bit flushed over that. I mean, I actually like playing the goody2x part in front of people. I like people to see me as a naive person. But once or twice I do slip out my conniving side and it always make the peopel startled. Of course, I won’t be telling out loud what bad things I have done~….

Happy Fasting. Fickle-Minded !

Life has been really restricting these days (yep..the usual phrase I suppose). Been busy with workin’ and hardly could find anytime to update this blog. Selamat menyambut puasa di Bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak! It’s been tiring for me; this first experience berpuasa dalam berkerja merupakan satu pengalaman yg memenatkan. Bila ingat balik zaman berbuka puasa kat USM and home memang rasa nostalgic la..

It’s been 3 days already kita berpuasa yet I haven’t have the opportunity to perform the Terawikh prayer. I was damn tired and dozed off masa first day tu tak sempat makan nasi. Just laksa and water terus mengantuk. Although my kelepasan masa keluar from the bank is around 5pm and on Fridays, 4.45pm; still the journey takes me around 1 hour (if i were to take erl from KL Sentral) and more kalao sesak. Tu baru je sampai at terminal transit ERL Putrajaya. The journey to the house kat bangi itself takes around half an hour.

However apart from that matter, my life in this new atmosphere has been nice. My colleagues are nice bunch of people although I don’t get to hang out with them after working hours; and I just finished the attachment kat department Goverment/Financial Institution/Statutory Board (yer kot?lupa) yg in charge on banking loans for companies yg Goverment related. I have learned a lot ; like how to approve the loans using proper methodology; the banking facilities (Letter of Credit, Bank Guarantees, etc); learn to do cashflow-to identify the companies’ financial condition; identifying and mitigating risks if we were to bagi the loan to the borrower,etc.

Kakak and Rifqi are having viral fever and things are getting quite hands-off. Hope they are getting better!~ And oh yeah, I also hope Rina will be getting better due to her viral-lung-infection. Happy Fasting everybody!~

P/S : I’m so darn into The Creme Brulee-JellyO. Perhaps I can bear with all the turn off things. This freaking JellyO makes me sssssoo melt laaa…..weeeeee =p! Aiya, talk about being fickle-minded.

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Geez….I just had class on basic accounting just now. sheesh! Recalling back what I’ve learnt masa secondary school and maths membuatkan my mind yg tetiba fresh jadi saturated!~ Adoi, simple concept of credit and debit pun dah terkonpius padahal masa dulu Tingkatan 3 not a big deal for me. Anyway, I was initially embarassed lah nak tanya sebab this is like trivial case kan…but lotsa help from Heidi (who is eager to explain everything to me! Thanks!) and Mr. Dass should alleviate my ‘turbulence’ nih…Well, nampaknya nak kena beli “Accounting For Dummies” la ni…hhehe..

FRUSTRATION : When A Creme Brulee Is Merely A Jelly-O ?!!

MOOD  : FRUSTRATED + BEWILDERED

SONG   : WHEN YOU’RE GONE BY AVRIL (Implying that I will yearn this creme brulee-now-a-jelly-O-no more!!!! GONE CASE)

I’m currently in a disappointed state now. As time reveals itself, it turned out that the creme brulee is merely a jelly-o!When I’m down, i will keep my talkative mouth shut and shut and shut. It happens outta sudden as the thought occurred to my mind and then i’ll be like having my fluctuating mood swings. I’m so APPALLED + FRUSTRATED + ANGRY + DISAPPOINTED + CHEATED = HOW COME THE CREME BRULEE IS MERELY A JELLY-O?

I’ve always fancy creme brulee before; the superficiality is inviting to explore… but now;  when I have realize the creme brulee is nothing but a jelly-o, i’m kinda frustrated !!! I mean, of course there’s nothing wrong being a jelly-o; a jelly-o is slimy and nice and not bad at all, right? Perhaps because initially I was so keen and yearning for the creme brulee that it became a smack-on-my-face to find that the enticing ought-to-be creme brulee is SIMPLY a jelly-o?!   SH*T !!!!!!

ARGHHHHHH!!!! Whatever it is it’s no biggie. Just my personal upheavel. I just feel like I need to siphon out these mess yang berserabut in my kepala hotak ni... We’ll see la the remaining justifications unveiled thru time nanti…..*ergh*

My First Outstation. Game Of Fate. Things I’ll Never Say.

I’m Tugging My Hair. I’m Pulling At My Clothes. I Try To Keep My Cool. I Know It Shows.

Today I will be going to Seberang Jaya, Penang for my Business Loan Centre (BLC) practical ! It’s gonna be my very first outstation (hehe). I Know it sounds hilarious to dictate such trivial matter but I’m all excited,anxious and looking forward for it !

Anyway, yesterday (Monday) something that never expected happened! It’s funny how fate sometimes destined something to happen. Words coming out from the mouth just simply make me burningly startled and flushed (yep, I’m not afraid to admit it although it may sound dodgy for a guy to say it out loud!) for like seconds. I can’t believe that after all these YEARS! Well…. u know what they say; you fancy chocolate when you can’t get it. When you finally got it; the excitement just fade away! =)

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Guess my first oustation is short-lived! Hmm, Miss Vasuki called yesterday saying that our AFFIN CEO wants all of the trainee to be assemble all across Klang Valley je. So, I’m goin back today although baru je sampai kat Seberang Jaya ni semalam. Duduk sini lama2x pun boring sbb takde kawan (huhuh). But the consolation prize tu OK gak (hehe). I have the Sunway Hotel room for my own; and having the luxurious bath yg lama dah tak dapat eversince berpindah residence kat Bangi (ahaks! Kakak don’t get mad pulak when u read this hehe); and bangun lewat bermalas-malasan (lama dah tak dapat peluang camni on weekdays); makan nasik kandar + minum teh tarik pure Penang; gebang loghat Penang (hehe, talking in Penangite). The atmosphere is refreshing.

Anyway, just pegi gak kat BLC @ Business Loan Centre kat Seberang Jaya ni tadi just to "show courtesy aka building rapport" (this is how Miss Vasuki phrase it). Had a lil chat with the officers and of course I can tell by their expression that I’m this naive submissive person- and I really play the part well like usual; I guess (ahaks!). Since ada masa ni, I figure why not scouting around this area and cari2x ada CC ker tak…Most probably, I’ll be stationed at the Menara Affin itself.

** Tadi nak check out, i got prob sikit dgn schedule checking-out tu so Miss Vasuki called the management board. When I was about to check out tu, receptionist tu was like

• " Tadi mak awak ade telephone untuk lengthen the cheking out period kan?" (ERRRK?).
• I was like " Ehh takk! Tu Officer saya tu; bukan MAK SAYA!!".
• She went like " Laaa..nampak cam muda sangat (ERRRK??)

She was like giglling the whole way (including me la kan?). Well, I always get that. Not exactly something peculiar I’ve encounter though =)

Anyway, I wanna share this song (my page theme song this day; lama dah nak carik this song coz I have sentimental value for the song=p) = "Things I’ll Never Say"….

I’m Feeling Nervous. Trying To Be So Perfect. ‘Coz I Know You’re Worth It.