New Year 2008 : Moving Around So Low? Clowns Are My Salvatory Valves.. =(

We Stay Move In Around So Low. Ask Us Where You Went We Don’t Know And Don’t Care. All We Know Is We Was At Home ‘Cause You Left Us There.

Jukebox : "Good Girl Gone Bad" by Robyn Rihanna Fenty

The New Year 2008 is approaching…and my mood hasn’t improve that much from the wooshy-washy unstable swings. It sucks, I know!~ Tomorrow will be my last day in CRC Kelana Jaya; i think i’m gonna miss people there (I know I can be a melodramatic; overly sometimes!). They have been very patient and friendly towards me and I really treasure most of the coo-operations :-

1. Michelle – The loaquacious Customer Service Exec. lenglui whois indeed very friendly and mostly being the person I always tag along (hhaha). It’s fun to see her how she handles customers and how she slyly handles all the teasings and flirtings (hahah).
2. Abang Yus – One of my teller mentor. Initially, I thought him as a very serious person (Yalah, He didnt even smile when I first introduced towards him); but turned out he’s the jester/joker of the CRC! Hahha; that reminds me that looks sometimes can be deceiving.
3. Abang Jamal – Quite shy but gradually starting to warms up. A hardcore teaser.
4. Abang Nizam – Initially, I’m not really comfortable with him coz he’s quite a razor-mouthed. But he meant no harm and that’s when I realize that maybe that’s his nature. He’s a helpful mentor and a great companion as well.
5. Kak Mizan – One of the Vault Room aka Strong Room custodians. Quite a razor-mouthed as well but quite a teaser too (hahaha). She’s shown me great deals about the CRC operations and I appreaciate her tolereance towards my childish immaturity (hahah, yeps).
6. Kak Dura – A beautiful Kelater Remittance Officer whois very patient and tolerates my every questions. She always teases me and dubbed me as Theory CIC Manual Officer coz I was like so into the CIC readings (haha).
7. Jack - A kelate teller-trainee who used to work as a research officer in NAZA with RM 3000+ salary. This reminds me again that books arent to be judged by covers.
8. Pak Rahim & Kak Yah – The Pak Guard and the Tea Lady have been very nice towards me; especially Pak Rahim who plays a daddy figure towards me as he’s also a Penangite and promised to find a bilik sewa for me. He always advice me about my safety,etc.
9. Kak Nomie – the most joyous Meeter Greeter I’ve ever met. A bubbly figure and contagious laugh are tokens of her friendliness.
10. John – My senior and initial mentor. He’s a knowledgable person who shares his experiences with me and very helpful. He even tumpangkan me to the stesen LRT and that’s very nice of him. Thanks!~

Sometimes, I can be so dramatic; (I know!!); but I’m just the kinda person who is honest towards whatever I feel and I don’t like to not say what I feel. I always whine about everyting (sigh) and I’m blessed with people around me who patiently listen to my childish complaints- I really appreciate them all and that’s how i know whether these people are good friends or the otherwise. And Lately, I’ve been attracting quite a number of sleazy people (Geez~). Who the hell they think I’m ???? *whatever*. My appointment aka meeting tete-a-tete with Encik Sharifuddin dibatalkan last week and is due on 2nd January. *tension *tension*. There are few songs that keep playing in my head these days :-

1. "Good Girl Gone Bad" by Rihanna – The lyrics is someting *shakes head*
2. "Rehab"  by Rihanna feat. J.T. – Arghhhh! My jukebox these days…Sh*t!!
3. "Breakin’ Dishes" by Rihanna - I’m getting restless with this song.
4. "Apologize" by Timbaland feat. One Republic - As much as I try to avoid this song, it keeps playing everwhere I go. In monorail, LRT, in the CRC Kelana Jaya,etc !! Erk!

As much as i like to act mature and grow up, i’m still not able to confine my childish tantrum-throwings when things don’t flow my way. I’m a sensitive, green eyed monster who always get jealous for slightest reason. Difficult huh? Erm yeah..and that’s the reason why CLOWNS HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MY SALVATORY VALVES. I don’t get infatuated with people just because they look hot (well, that’s a bonus if they are, I don’t doubt that); For me, there’s more than meet the eyes. Laughter and jokes always make me intoxicate (erm, apart from tattoos, knives and bondages of course!).

I miss the attention…… (childish,huh? *sigh)

    

To Confine The Tantrum-Throwings. Holiday Breakaway : “Dealova” & “Rehab”. Good Child Gone Bad.

It’s hard… =(   But I’m trying.

NOTIFICATION UPDATES :

Jukebox Mood : "Rehab" by Rihanna feat. Justin Timberlake

And All Of A Sudden When You Left. I Didn’t Know How To Follow. It’s Like A Shot That Spun Me Around. And Now My Heart Left. I Feel So Empty & Hollow.

The holidays I’m having now is simply something needed to remedy all those turbulence dalam kepala hotak semasa working. Very much needed I guess, in a way~ The Hari Raya Aidiladha this year was quite unique. It was not a joyous family affair as most of relatives semua takder kat hometown Jitra ni (Makkah, Lumut, dll) but I kinda treasured it in a way that I got to meet my nephew, Mohd Rifqi Naufal whois now growing chubby-ier and semakin ’sihat’ under surveillance of Ayah ngan Mak. I just love him to death (although I’m not the typical person who would babysit 24-7! His laughter is sugary indeed, and I understand why every parents treasure their young ones).

Since I need a REAL breakaway, I’ve decided to turun Penang yesterday (22nd December) to alleviate the tantrum-throwing syndrome I’m having due to childish-yearning over The Clown. Initially, ingat nak just roamed around the island with few friends lepas tu balik Kedah malam tu jugak; turned out sampai Penang pun dah pukul 4.15pm; so asked  Sharizul Fazlie aka Lie (my faithful ex-roomate) amik and I sorta bunked at his place for a nite; Khirwan, Muzem and Couzy Ween were not available. Lie is still the same person; very tolerable with whatever his friends would have asked him; obliged to my wish to go out watch movie (along with Bob and Lan) "National Treasure 2" kat Queensbay Mall. Hhahaa~ Before that, sempat jugak, he serenaded me with his guitar-playing and croaky voice (ahaks!) singing the song "Dealova" (erk??! I Know!). Sempatlah jugak berpadu suara dengan dia tuh (ahhahaha! geez! hahaha). This whole thing is a sweet reminiscence of those USM years with him and all those Kelate boys during my 2nd and 3rd years (huuhuh)….

Today, went out with Khirwan (been ages! at last!) and we sorta updated each other’s what’s hot-and- what’s not life. Lama tak jumpa him; nostalgic friend who was literally with me during my ups and downs! Really miss those good ole days; and now I’m actually in his office at EUREKA (just take a peekaboo of his working life~ weeez). Tonite, maybe duduk kat rumah Muzem plak and went out with Khirwan & muzem to pesta kot or maybe lepak with Couzy Ween kot. Apap2pun, this is a nice breakaway for me from the hectic schedule back in KL =)

Above all, I really miss my colleagues; till next year baru boleh jumpa all of them; and I don’t get to attend Kareena’s Xmas Eve BBQ!! Sounds corny, melancholic; whatever… Although this breakaway has indeed make me laugh like hell (hehehe; Lie/Khirwan), but I still miss The Clown. Hurm =(

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Everyhing is a mess…=(  Just arrive dari Kedah via flight yg di-reschedule dari malam ke morning. After that pegi fix motor yg pancit… Ejun got KPLI and he’s leaving Kajang for good by next month. I dunno why I’m not happy. I guess after this I can’t badger/ kacau him no more or rely on him for any possibilities yg mendatang kot.Kinda sad…=(. These days, everytime balik mesti there’s something yang akan jadi topik pertengkaran between me and Ayah. I guess I’m in the middle of hot-tempered stage of my life these days. Hhuuuhh. I’m never really a good child. Everything is a mess………Anyway, just bought new phone yesterday= Sony Ericcson W-300. My old Nokia 3310 dah rosak masa nak re-charge kat umah Muzem. My appointment with Encik Shariffudin plak due on Thursday. I’m a wrecked ship now. Suddenly I feel lonely & secluded…..*sigh* =(

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So far, experiences in CRC Kelana Jaya has been nice. Although the atmosphere was mostly ‘tranquil’ sebab tak banyak orang, I’ve learnt quite few new things; and the seniors are being very helpful and quite teasers as well (hahah!). And the experience with a so- called "lecherous" rich customer (almost la!) was a bit of eye-opener. I have to confess that I’m not in any whooshy-dreamy sorta atmosphere now; apart from all the hullaballoos in my head yang semalam I wrote kat atas tuh, I have this one thing yang tertambah plak kat kepala hotak ni. I’m in a dilemma; should I submit to the "meaningless-waste of time-useless-means nothing to me"  coax of a desperado; or should I just keep waiting for an unknown sign from full-of-pride coward? Geez~! I’m not full-fledge a bad child…..yet.

It’s Like I Checked Into Rehab. Baby You’re My Decease. I Gotta Check Into Rehab ‘Cause Baby You’re My Decease.

Childlike’s Alter-Ego.

I’m A Possesive Person.

Oh begini rasanya
Hatiku sengsara
Mengingat dia hatiku luka
Kerna tergoda oleh cinta

Oh begini rasanya
Hatiku sengsara
Mengingat dia hatiku luka
Kerna tergoda oleh cinta

Diri sanggup membela
Kepada saya, yang sengsara

Diri sanggup membela
Kepada saya, yang sengsara

Oh asmara banyaklah pengaruhnya
Manusia hidup dalam bahayanya

Oh cinta itu memang satu penggoda
Kita harus tahu menjaga
Agar hidup mulia

Meeting Old Friends. Corporate Luncheon. CRC Hullaballoo. : I’m All For The Clown!=)

"And I Can’t Stand You. Must Everything You Do Make Me Wanna Smile. Can’t I Not Like You For A While?"

Jukebox Mood : "Hate That I Love You" by Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo.

I’m missing my nephew Mohd Rifqi Naufal these days. Happy belated birthday my nephy-poo (huhuhu)!

Assalamualaikum!~ It’s been another eventful and crazy week for me =). Erm, banyak gak yang nak saya recap..where do I begin? LOL! ~ Last week, went out with Nazmi and Naz (after for like ages!). Initial plan was to have this "bonding aka quality time" with my sister; turned out the duo were like free plak masa tuh and Kakak was like into cleaning spree mood (nak kemas rumah la!); so I went out with them la. Although that weekeend saya sebenarnya peruntukkan nak buat proposal yang kena dihantar hari Rabu; the idea was scrapped (I rather indulge myself in a more fun diversion daripada memerah otak thinking about the proposal=p!). We went to One-Utama watched " The Golden Compass". The movie was surprisingly not a turn-off, I must say. It was quite a beautiful movie and of coz Nicole Kidman was liek stunningly dangerous as the antagonist! I have to say that the movie is not meant for kids; it’s absolutely an entertaining mythical film *(take note Nazmi and Azmir!ahhaha)*

On Wednesday, one of the Treasury Money Market Dealer Cik Fizar brought us to this charity luncheon at Amanah Butler in Bangunan MIDF (which is like next-door distance jer ngan Menara Affin!). It was an experience for me to attend a so-called "corporate-mingling-let-hair-down" kinda thing (ahaks!exaggerate   tak ayat ni?!). The atmosphere was chillin and quite funny to see semua broker-broker playing dressed-up (as if it was Halloween!). The dishes were fantastic and it was a nice exposure in understanding the ettiqutte of mingling with corporate peeps (although it was not a formal one, I must say!).

Minggu juga, saya berhempas-pulas untuk menyiapkan proposal tentang attachments di Government & Financial Institutions, Contract Financing, Credit Risk, dan Trade Finance. Kami semua (my batch H2W) mostly bersengkang mata nak siapkan proposal (ahha, sebab last minute) tu dan pada masa yang sama cuba absorb as much knowledge as possible kat Treasury Department sebab on Friday plak, ada assessment (I know! sucks, right?). Attachment kat Treasury memang menyeronokkan. Walaupun konsep tasks execution kat situ agak kompleks dan mengelirukan, atmosphere di situ memang menarik; and quite glamorous, I have to say! Sebab tu ramai yang bercita-cita nak join Treasury Department ni. On Thursday (second last day), the Head of Corporate Dealers, Cik Alang Zarina (she’s quite funny although she possess the I’m-a-no-nonsense-when-it-comes-to-business" aura) threw us a simple makan-makan untuk meraikan kami, the trainees. That was kinda sweet.

Next week, we are to be attached at different CRC (branches) so that kononnya la, dapat lebih banyak exposure macam mana operasi kat branches dijalankan. Saya ditugaskan di CRC Kelana Jaya; which is like thousand miles from Bandar Baru Bangi!!!!! I was like cracking skull juga semalam fikir macam mana nak travel ni (for like 5 days jer la; tolak cuti Raya Aidiladha yang stretch sampai Christmas and New Year). Cadang nak gi survey hari ni kat area Kelana Jaya; nak gi ngan Azmir la petang ni sebab I’m not familiar with the area and nak juga compare distance Menara Glomac Kelana Jaya tu (the CRC is in that building) jauh ke tak daripada LRT Kelana Jaya……

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Went to survey CRC kat Kelana Jaya tadi. Azmir took me from Kelana Jaya’s LRT; memang memeningkan nak cari CRC tuh, pusing2x cari ikut map yg I printed out tuh; plus tanya ngan pak guard2x (which didnt help!well..quite la..): alas!~ dapat jugak carik; thank God he tagged along with me; if not, abes la..ehhe. I really appreciate that, thanks =).

Lepas tuh, carik plak tiket nak balik cuti Raya haji n Krismas ni: TIKET BAS ABISSS!!! Bengang sangat, I opted for the last resort; naik flight on the morning of raya; sedey la jugak but what to do~ *sigh*. Am I looking forward for CRC travelling So far…NOT!~

Above all, saya harap semuanya berjalan dengan lancar (walaupun tayar moto dah pancit lagi skali! hark!) dan so far, saya sedang meniti hari-hari yang menggembirakan. Alhamdulillah. Saya berdoa semuanya berkekalan.

 

5th Attachment @ Treasury Department. Childlike In Whoopsi-Daisy State Of Mind !

"Matahari Masih Jingga. Menyala Cinta Bagai Bara."

This week has been quite a topsy tursy (to begin with!); i’m actually ’stealing time’ baru balik dari kerja sebab hari ni lambat sgt lepas meet up with Mrs Jasbir regarding about jobs-preference (later explained) and our overall marks.

Attachment yg terakhir before this programme training habis ialah di Treasury Department. Well, as for Affin Bank itself, the department is divided into 3 sections :-

• front desk,
• back office,
• middle office.

The front desk yg comprises oleh FOREX dealers, money market dealers, dll is like the luxurious & glamorous setting (but yeah, it comes with the pressure as well!). I have yet to be attached kat sana (tomorrow) sebab so far for the last 2 days ni, attached kat back office with Fathia & Rashid; together with Rina, Muna "Moan" (hahaha!) and Regina. Back office is where the operational side of the FOREX (Foreign exchange) or Money market dealings yg di-secured oleh dealers are handled! This side kinda "not-so-lavish" la in comparison dengan bahagian dealers (well,they make money to coax the customers, aint they?). Middle office is the ‘library’: very peaceful…..zzz.

There are so many things I’ve learnt sepanjang 4 bulan training ni and bahagian treasury ni bagi saya agak menarik. Saya tahu serba sedikit sekarang (yer sikit je) about foreign currency exchange; macam mana nak convert currency matawang asing; how the bank make money outta money market & foreign exchange (by charging additional value a.k.a. additional ‘pips’) and many more! Tadi jumpa Mrs Jasbir and I’ve told her that I’m very much going to list out my preference according to this :-

1. Corporate Communication
2. Contract Financing
3. Trade Financing @ Credit Risk

Why corporate communication? becoz I know i can excel if i go to the non-business side. But of course I’m not gonna put high hope on that as vacancy is very scarce (hardly! satu jer kot!) and there are other eligible candidate for that~. Contract Financing is adventurous as it liases with Goverment & GLCs. Tapi, risks like payment risk tu memang dah tak payah pikir la…Trade Financing plak menarik sebab banyak facilities for Import-Export and involve procedures & documents yg menarik (tapi memeningkan juga); tedious and sebarang ralat will cause penalty yg membahayakan bank’s financial status (and urself as well!!!). *I’m so confuse*.. After this training, I don’t think I’m into Relationship Manager (RM); the frontliners. You have to have some kinda ATTITUDE and boldness to become that. Of course you dine and party and entertain customers…but in the end you have to package facilities for your customer!~ Arghhhhh!~ I’m so in a whoopsi-daisy state of mind!!!!

"Aku MenungguMu. Aku Takkan Jemu."