Old DIRTY scum rubbish is crawling back? Please GO AWAY! Please have your own LIFE and stop disturbing me! I already find mine and Alhamdulillah, so content with it now. And now you want to tarnish the tranquility and try to ‘Assalamualaikum’ me? BULLSHIT! You can just F*** O**!!! I am dedicating my life now to the one who deserves me more than a scum faeces. What a shitty loser.
Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I’ll get a chance to see you when I close my eyes
I’m going outta my head
Lost in a fairytale can you hold my hands and be my guide?
Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kind of dream is this?
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don’t wanna wake up (Turn the lights on!) from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good (Turn the lights on!) to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain’t goin’ nowhere
Baby, long as you’re here
I’ll be floating on air cause you’re my, you’re my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don’t wanna wake up (Turn the lights on!) from you
I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy, you’re my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you’re there
To wrap your arms around me for real and tell me you’ll stay by side
Clouds filled with stars cover the skies and I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kind of dream is this?
Tattoo your name across my heart
So it will remain….
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?
The first semester holiday is officially comes to an end today, Sunday 21st March 2010. It has been therapeutic yet I am now yearning for the holidays to be prolonged (Hahaha, I bet all the office bugs would be disgusted hearing this, eh?). It is a nice breakaway from the daily schedule and pamper myself with friends, relatives and loved ones.
Ayah and Mak came down to Central Region for a cousin’s wedding and then they stayed for a week at Kakak’s house to nurse Rifqi back to health. Since my school holiday was merely a week away, they stayed for another week at my residence so that I can go back to Kedah with them. On Saturday, we pushed off to Lumut to visit my cousin, Kak Yati and her family. Like their usual welcoming air, Abg Jie and Kak Yati attended us graciously in their mansion. I like their family because they are friendly lot. The children are good-mannered too- and that explains how they were nurtured. You know what they say – “it all comes down to the parents. If yours are brats, well…. you have to ponder back how you nurture them, don’t you?” And Alhamdulillah to my parents because Abg Jie wants to include them again in his entourage to perform Umrah! Their ‘rezeki’ I would say to have golden opportunity sponsored to visit the Holy Land.
Since Abg Jie was an ex-navy, he loves to go fishing. He brought Ayah and Aiman to fish and they managed to get a few fishes (I am not interested in fishing. Pity, aite?). He also treated us with lavish seafood restaurant and we were so full eating sumptuous delicacies – fried squids, crabs-with-soya sauce (‘ketam masak kicap’), ‘kangkung masak belacan’, ‘ais kacang’, fried quails (‘burung puyuh’) and fruit-flavored beverages! It was nice (,”).
On Monday, we pushed off to Jitra on convoy with Abg Jie, Kak Yati, Aiman and Aifni because they also were going back to Alor Star to visit Mak Caq. On the way, we stopped at Trong, Perak to visit a ‘warm spring’ local spa. The natural warm spring is used for foot reflexology and for any skin-disease alternative treatment. I have to say the first dip into the spring WAS IMMENSELY HOT! But once you get used of the warmness, it was an ultimate relaxation. Thanks Abg Jie and Kak Yati! Next, we stopped at Seberang Jaya Hospital to visit Kak Nazirah who was scheduled to undergo an operation on stomach tumor (if I am not mistaken). As jovial as she always been, she didn’t show the slightest distraught over that and treated us in her jovial attitude. May Allah protects her, Insya Allah.
It was nearly 3 months since I left Jitra. It was nice to be back to the provincial town and sighting familiar places around. Initially, planned to have a get-together with Salim, Raymond and Kord at Jitra Mall but proved to no avail since Salim said that his relatives were to come and Raymond was in Sungai Petani. So, went out with Kord to watch “Solomon Kane” which deemed to be a B-rated movie. Not totally a turkey but definitely NOT a Hollywood box-office! That night, went out with Syahrir and Firdaus Sulhi for nite drinks at Jitra’s Nasmir. It was nice to catch up with what your friends were up to. (,”)
Fly from Sultan Abdul Halim’s Airport (Alor Star) to Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA) on Saturday. Still have quite a few English and Science exam papers to be marked and to polarize and analyze the performances of each classes. Since Kakak told me on eleventh hour that Saturday was Abg Zam’s birthday, I don’t think I managed to go to Putrajaya. But maybe next week will try to make amend of it. Happy birthday Abg Zam! I miss Rifqi… Anyway, had dinner at Pizza Hut in Carrefour Kepong and I have to say the service there was VERY BAD! I have no intention of disgracing anyone but the service was totally BAD. I might have to forward some complaints later on.
On whole, this holiday is of myriads of colours. It’s good to be back to provincial tranquil Serendah. (,”)
When I can’t sleep, I turn to my blog to write. Like this very now. On this exact 4.36 A.M. and on fateful 18th March 2010 morning. My eyes are too tired but my mind keeps regurgitating visions, missions and emotions. Too much to be siphon-out in too little time. A sweet looking childlike thinks a lot- it always puzzles strangers to know what are in the mind of this childlike; projections of notions beyond the youthful facade? The verdicts are in the strangers’ cards.
There are times when emotions erupt like an angry volcano, the mind is drawn to the darker alter-ego. Of course, who would ever thought that a seemingly demure childlike is defensive and arrogant when the slumber state is disturbed? On generic term to fit the society taboo, I am very much a good person. I am sweet and friendly. But to a certain boundary. When the boundary is crossed, I am full of resistance and defense. I am an uncouth snobbish.
Amazing angel. Inspirational.
On friends : Have I ever abandon loyal friends? NEVER. How do I value good friends? When they are there when I need them. When they always holler me to know my well-beings. When they try their butt off to ease my pain and make me happy. When they don’t desert me. Friends who do these will never have me abandoning them. But of course, those good friends KNOW who they are. I have many friends; but having good friends are limited; having best friends are countable with fingers (,”)
On lovers : Have I being scandalous? NEVER. Who I dated were countable. But why most of them are crawling back? Because they know I am the devoted one. Opinionated. Hates being clutched and forced. Treasure honesty and piety. When I give commitment, I never waive, Insya Allah. But once faith is betrayed, you just have to let it go because it is no more sacred. That’s my faith. Maybe that’s why my relationships always low-profiles.
I am just fascinated by whip and bondage. It’s not like I am INTO DOING it. Geez.Miaoww!
On life : Have I been a blessed soul this far? YES. Alhamdulillah. I have a career I savor immensely. I have few close-knitted people around me who treasure me as much as I treasure them. I have the chance to meet a lot of amazing and talented people. I have been blessed with ability to mingle and to attract interesting people in my life. Life is always an open secret. God destines the life but we carve the way. Like any fragile human, I have my ups and downs. I am not all pious and sometimes my defenses are brittle. But I have faith. Always have faith. To Allah SWT.
On myself : Have I been labeled as cold? YES. Have I been labeled as friendly? YES. Have I been labeled as stubborn? YES. Have I been labeled as sensitive? YES. Do people found it’s weird with my fascination with bondage? YES. Do people found it’s weird that an innocent-looking curses a lot? YES. So how do I perceive myself as? An honest person who has the features of a youthful childlike BUT a defensive soul who has myriads of wisdom words that crack hardballs. And aspire to make a difference in someone’s lives. (,”)
I don’t write because I want to record many hits from visitors. I don’t write because I want numerous comments. I don’t write because I want my Google searches to be in abundance in Internet. I don’t write because I want to be an instantaneous web-sensation : I write because this is the platform I can voice out my thoughts and my personal perceptions. It’s a personal inscription but to have responses from friends and acquaintances on every pieces of writing is certainly gratifying.
Alhamdulillah, so far my life is in great balance. Of course there are some glitches over here and there but on whole, I have been blessed by Allah SWT; personally and professionally. My prayer is that the blessing never last. Insya Allah. (,”)
“You are my raindrop. I am the seed. With you and God who’s my sunlight. I bloom and grow so beautifully.”
To recap my social calendar events; HECTIC : is the word! The school is busy with Additional Sports Event (on Tuesday, Wednesday & Friday) and I was delegated to take in charge as Penyelia Perserta for Long Jump. Honestly, I am enjoying my career immensely so far and I have no complaint or whatsoever (yet!). It is a sort of mind-rejuvenating scene to be in the field with the children; demonstrating to them and feel the ground – a reminiscence of those good old days when I myself was a primary school pupil, as well! I always believe that God has His own way of carving our destiny with all of His wonders and to ponder back the challenges I have to face to enter KPLI (doubts on leaving banking line; documentation fiasco during KPLI interview), God knew that this is what I am meant to do; and Insya Allah, will be able to soar jubilantly in this career line. Amazing,aite?
With Cikgu Rosmainy, Ustaz Shuib & Cikgu Farid (mengantuk??? Hahaha)
Registration for Long-Jumping!
Nik, Rizman, Azam and Kalvinder. They want me to take their pictures. Haish (,”)
Tug-O-War! The teachers are more excited than the pupils! Hehehe (<”)
Anyway on Wednesday, I was roped-in to attend a talk-seminar at Genting Highlands, given by the international education consultant, Tony Buzan.He is a renowned figure in catapulting concepts of mind-mapping and mental literacy into world-wide application. He shared with the audiences on the power of mind and how kids are able to use both brain hemispheres (synergy) to accelerate the momentum of the minds. He also introduced the concept of mind-mapping which is not only an attractive way to generate ideas, but also an easy one to fbranch out any issues or topics; thus, making it easier to explain the idea to the public! I was fascinated by the talk that when the floor was open for Question-And-Answer, I posed question to Mr. Tony Buzan. Well, so happened that most of the crowd comprising of management teams in Jabatan Pendidikan Negeri (JPN) and one of them took notice of me. Later on, the representative so-called complimenting my flawless English (which I found quite weird and absurd because I don’t think I use Queen’s English during the Question-And-Answer session). Nonetheless, the JPN guy said he will call my school (since I introduced myself and the name of my school when I were to ask Mr. Buzan the question) and will like to rope me in into several English courses JPN-level which deemed to demand good proficiency in English. Well, I ain’t complaining if it is a potential one to elevate my career to another credible level! Bring it on, Insya Allah (,”)
Mr. Tony Buzan.
On Friday, Mak & Ayah came to Serendah after a week nursing Rifqi Naufal back to health. Poor my beloved nephew. He is prone to illnesses. On Saturday morning, I went to school to help Cikgu Hairil to train the kids for Long Jump and Running. It was an enjoyable one being Hairil who happens to be jovial person and also the kids were enthusiastic lot. But my joints and sinews were quite hurt after the session; since it has been ages since I run around the field and stretch my sinews to the max! Hahahha! But it was great, though. On the evening, went to watch “Alice In Wonderland” with Abg Jali at Cineleisure, Mutiara Damansara. It was amazing!!!!! Tim Burton as usual portrays his eccentric side through his movies : The wardrobes, the backgrounds, the make-ups and the peculiar characters are all cliche Burton- which I adore! After that, went to savor the popular ‘Nasi Ayam Penyet’ at Damansara near Giza Sunway (which is actually an Indonesian delicacy, I was told).
Alice. Mad Hatter. Cheshire Cat.
On whole, I have fun this week and so far, I feel I am truly blessed. Alhamdulillah. I hope my presence brings happiness and exuberant vibes in the lives of everyone around me, too. Like what I always quote to describe about myself : “I treasure people who appreciate me. I take revenge to people who fuck wit me. A subtle knife that is.”
Apart from that, I also like to share a dialogue from the movie “Alice In Wonderland”by Mad Hatter to Alice : Have I gone mad? Yes, you absolutely gone bonkers. But let me tell you one secret. All of the great people are.” So, if anyone think you are eccentric or weird, think about this. We all great people (<”)!
