Sumpah Darah Patriotisme Warga Malaysia : Selamat Menyambut Kemerdekaan MALAYSIA Ke-53!

Entri kali ini ditulis dalam Bahasa Cinta Pertama. Bahasa Malaysia. Saya selesa menulis dalam kedua-dua bahasa. Penggunaan Bahasa Inggeris adalah untuk perkukuhkan gaya tulisan dan naratif inskriptif Bahasa Inggeris saya. Namun, Bahasa Malaysia tetap merupakan kelebihan dan keselesaan hakiki saya dalam melontarkan idea.

Tanggal 31 Ogos 2010 genaplah Malaysia mencapai kemerdekaan ke-53. Sesungguhnya dalam tempoh 53, negara yang tercinta telah mencapai banyak kegemilangan yang boleh dibanggakan sebagai antara negara Asia Tenggara terhebat. Kita mempunyai :

1. Menara berkembar tertinggi di dunia
2. Telah menawan puncak Everest
3. Telah mengelilingi lautan dunia
4. Telah menghantar angkasawan di angkasa lepas

dan macam-macam lagi. Penduduk di Malaysia yang berbilang kaum walaupun kini diancam anasir yang memecah-belahkan kaum merupakan satu-satunya penduduk dunia yang DAPAT HIDUP BERSAMA-SAMA DENGAN HARMONI WALAUPUN BERBILANG KAUM DAN MEMPUNYAI HAK PRAKTIKKAN AGAMA MASING-MASING!

Tetapi sangat menyedihkan kini kerana generasi kini sudah mula mempertikaikan isu-isu sensitif tanpa mengira hati kaum yang lain. Juga menyedihkan dengan tindakan-tindakan bangsa asing yang cuba membakar kesabaran rakyat Malaysia yang sabar dan tak jemu menumpangkan mereka berkongsi rezeki. Di mana silapnya?

Saya rakyat MALAYSIA. Ini ialah tanah tumpah darah; tanah air tercinta saya. Perjuangan nenek moyang dan pengorbanan perwira negara dahulu memperjuangkan kemerdekaan amat saya hargai. Tanpa mereka, mungkin Malaysia bukanlah sebuah negara autonomi tetapi MASIH berada dalam jajahan negara lain. Saya tak peduli pada mereka yang mengaku dilahirkan di Malaysia tetapi malu untuk tinggal di Malaysia. Ini tanah lahir saya. Akan saya pertahankan kedaulatannya, Insya Allah.

Pelik kalau kita boleh menulis tentang rentetan kehidupan kita yang remeh tetapi tak boleh menulis tentang rasa patriotisme kebangsaan yang mengalir dalam tubuh, bukan? SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA! Selamat Menyambut Kemerdekaan Malaysia ke-53!

Nuzul Al-Quran (Finale of Heavenly Revelation). Stephen King’s “Carrie.” Possibly Pharyngitis!

Tonight, it is the 17th Ramadhan, marking the day when the Holy Al-Quran was descended; revealed by Allah SWT to Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. through the archangel, Jibril (Gabriel). The Holy Quran is the finale revelation for men of the Last Hours (before the approaching of Armageddon); from Taurat (Torah), Zabur (Psalms) and Injil (Bible).

It was commenced in the dark, pitch-black Cave of Hira‘. Jibril came to Prophet Muhammad and summoned him to recite the FIRST verse :

“Read in the name of thy LORD who created .”

I have been feeling rather lethargic and sick these days. Yesterday, I went to the Poliklinik Serendah and was diagnosed to be contracting some infection at the throat. As I was kinda reluctant for medical leaves, doctor urged me to take MCs as it is quite lethal if I were to attend the school. And furthermore, she stressed that I really NEED TO REST and rejuvenate liquids inside the body! Today, I’ve been sleeping the whole day and not able to fast. It was a loss but what to do. But I get to start reading the new Stephen King novel I bought “Carrie”.

I hope that this illness will soon fades away. Ya Allah!

Rosary Of Passionate Prayers (J’Adore).

“You are everything I need and more. It’s written all over your face. Baby, I can see your Halo. I pray it won’t fade away.”



Endurances In Ramadhan : Health Fiasco. Defunct Gadgets. Pregnancy Miscarriages. Forgiveness & Apologizes.

For non-Moslems, fasting in the month of Ramadhan is simply to witness that their Moslem counterparts avoid consuming foods and beverages. Nonetheless, this 3rd decree in Pillar of Islamic Faith consists more than merely the act of not eating and drinking. To achieve a perfect fasting in the month of Ramadhan, a Moslem would have to avoid all negative influences and traits (physical & emotional) such as hatred, angst, envy; avoid doing prohibited acts such as inserting something into body parts holes (poking ears, nose, engaging  sexual act) – apart from the foods/ beverages avoidance. This is to teach Moslems to be empathic towards those who are threading lives where foods and drinking sources are scarce.

Anyway, enough with the introduction. At this very point, days in Ramadhan for this year has already entering its 9th days. Cliche but it’s like within a blink of an eye! And so happen that in this Ramadhan, I myself has been tested with challenges to endure the strength of my mind and emotional defences. On the first and second days of Ramadhan, the weather was very unpredictable with rain and scorching hot intertwines back-to-back. With that kind of extreme climate, my body couldn’t take the toll (even rocks crack through this process; what is t for fragile being like me?) and I was having the most dreadful headache and sore throats.

Secondly, my 5 years-old A400 Canon camera had suddenly gone blank. The LCD did not project any images and it’s just so hard to use it to capture pictures when you couldn’t see any images in the LCD! Buy new one? I am thinking about it but perhaps it is not an appropriate time since the festive season is drawing near- which can only mean that money is MORE needed  in other MORE IMPORTANT departments (Raya money packets, etc)! Sigh.

Thirdly, my laptop has gone bonker yesterday! Huhuhu…. While navigating the Internet, suddenly the laptop shut down automatically and couldn’t be switched on ever since! The only thing that responses is that there is blinking lights at the side of key pad “CAPS LOCK” and “SCROLL”. I am totally a turkey in gadgets so I have to ask people around for possible-causes. From the status I posted in FB, friends and acquiantances said possibly it is because of RAM problem or OS Windows fiasco! I am sorry that I have no idea what those problems are but surely my laptop needs to be repaired as soon as possible!!!

But of course we always think that we are having the most difficult situation when we deal with the challenges; when actually what other people are experiencing are EVEN MORE DIFFICULT than ours! Allah SWT always has a brilliant idea to awake me from the illusion; whenever I am suffocatd dealing with my problem, Allah SWT will show me what others are experiencing and it always humbled me and make me realize how selfish I am as a fragile being.

Today, I just get to know from my best friend himself, Syafiq Ghause that his wife suffered from miscarriage. I don’t know but it’s just a thing about me that I am easily touched by what the people who are close to me are dealing with; their happiness and their sadness affect me and I just want the best thing happen in their lives; because like I said, I will always treasure people who appreciate me. I know Syafiq is so sad but he kept his voice calm and never cracked while talking to me. I just have the highest salute to him. Right now, his wife is understandably in worst condition (her sister just gave birth to a child!) and I just feel so overwhelmed and sad for both of them. But, God always has miraculous blesses in disguises. Syafiq and his wife have already guarantee that an angel of his unborn child is waiting for them in Heaven;praying for their well-beings. Masya Allah!

Apart from the patience-draining challenges, Ramadhan has also brings me to a new self-disclosure. On Thursday, I woke up and got ready to go to school when I watched Wardina in “Malaysia Hari Ini” said –

‘Bulan Ramadhan ialah bulan kemaafan” (Ramadhan is the month of forgiveness).

Automatically, it slapped me hard. I remembered about the ‘cold war’ between me and my USM friend who somehow without a clue banned me from his FB. I got scare that if I died and I don’t have opportunity to ask him if it was me who caused the rift between us, I might die uneasily. It’s just some pious conscience I had within me. So, by putting aside the ego and embarrassment and despite of believing that I had do nothing wrong, I SMS him asking for forgiveness if it so happened that I have hurt his sensitivities. And Alhamdulillah, he replied and he said it wasn’t my fault and I did nothing wrong. Only in that time he was pissed off and my ‘clownish’ comment was to add salt to the wound.  Alhamdulillah. I am just happy that although maybe our friendship might never be the same because it would be too awkward, I had clarify things out and everything is saccharine sweet because it was done by the name of Allah SWT, Insya Allah.

Me & Zaini during Teachers’ Day – Courtesy of Cikgu Khairul.

A myriad of Ramadhan colors.  Hope I will be stronger and be half as strong as people around me.

Nurturing Malaysian Humanistic Through Facebook (1600 Died. 14 Million Suffer) : Pakistan Worst Flood 2010.

I am always a strong supporter of a good cause. I believe that it is a precious thing to be able to make a difference in someone’s lives even if it is just merely of a small gesture. You never know, “The smallest grain can tip the scale”, ain’t it? Anyway, an ex-banker friend, Nadia Akwal is in an effort setting up a non-profitable organization of food aid for the flood victims in Pakistan and she asked if I could highlight this in my Facebook and my blog. Instantly without question, I am just thrilled with the idea because for me, her effort is amazing and I am so humbled and proud with that benevolent intention. I don’t know, maybe that’s the good side of being an empathic and sensitive person.

Anyway as we all know the global weather has become so unpredictable these days. Maybe it is the symbol of God’s wrath. Or maybe it’s a backlash of human persecution against Mother Nature. Nobody know for sure. But what we are sure is that since in the middle of July until now (middle of August), Pakistan is experiencing the worst flood in 4 of its provinces : Balochistan, NWFP, Southern Punjab and Sindh; including of Azad Jamu and Kashmir Region. This is because dams, rivers,and lakes overflowed due to the excessive amount of the moonsoon rain; killing so far 1600 people and affecting 14 million people! It has been described as a behemoth natural catastrophe in comparison to the 2005 Thailand’s Tsunami and 2009′s Haiti Earthquake.

Children and adults are suffering since food sources are scarce. God knows how the Pakistanis manage to survive especially in this month of Ramadhan; where the people there are predominantly Moslems.

Nadia initiated this organization to supply foods to the victims who are really in desperate of our help. She has sets up a Facebook Group to attract other people to join the campaign. You can visit the Facebook Group at : http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=146635892031349&v=info&ref=ts .

According to the information enlisted by Nadia, this is a maiden project of delivering food aid to the Pakistanis flood victims. A list of food items needed was released by the Pakistan Embassy in Malaysia as a red flag if anyone would like to do their bits of helping to ease the pains :

1. Formula Milk Powder
2. Canned Food Items
3. Sugar
4. Cooking Oil
5. Biscuits

Bagi para pembaca yang tak begitu menguasai Bahasa Inggeris, saya sertakan terjemahan intipati dalam Bahasa Melayu/Bahasa Malaysia. Seharapnya agar mesej yang ingin disampaikan dapat diterima segenap masyarakat tak kira apa juga penguasaan bahasa yang tersemat dalam minda.

Bekas rakan sekerja di bank iaitu Nadia Akwal sedang merangka satu penubuhan organisasi sukarela untuk membekalkan makanan kepada mangsa banjir di Pakistan yang sehingga kini telah meragut 1600 nyawa dan memberi kesan buruk terhadap 14 juta penduduk Pakistan. Dalam keadaan yang daif ini terutamanya di bulan Ramadhan, diktakan bahawa impak/kesan buruk yang dialami adalah jauh lebih besar berbanding Tsunami di Thailand pada tahun 2005 dan Gempa Bumi di Haiti pada tahun 2009.

Sebagai seorang rakyat Malaysia prihatin, saya berasa terpanggil untuk menolong rakan untuk menguar-uarkan pada khalayak yang mungkin singgah pada blog saya (kalau ada!) untuk sama-sama menyertai kumpulan Facebook di http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=146635892031349&v=info&ref=ts . Sama-samalah kita memberi sokongan; jika tidak dengan wang ringgit atau material, mungkin secara moral dan usaha promosi.

May Allah blesses this sacred intention. Masya Allah! (,”)

Halo : Write. Pray. Love.

Like I’ve always say and proudly held my head high, I am a soul filled with love. I am honest and committed. And ‘Halo” is never better to illustrate that. Every relationships I have are halos to me. With families, friends, lover (s) – not that many. These are sacred linkages that ring-fencing me all around. Honesty and committed are the qualities I hold dear.

I always treasure people who appreciate me; and I will do the otherwise with people who fucked with me. I am proud with myself that in relationships, I never pull any trigger to dishonor the sanctity of the relationships; whether of intimate ones or friendships. I always have highest honor to relationships; provided the persons in questions honor me as well and appreciate me.

It has been quite a while since I listen to “Halo”. But it doesn’t mean I hate the song. The song will always be a part of me. Only the dedication goes to different faces. And each dedication is meant for eternity to that person in question; if they don’t become assholes, of course.  Each memory is like a tattoo etched on skin. Permanent? Maybe. But we can always have a laser removal or draw another tattoo on the old ones. Hahaha.

And the song ‘Halo’ is playing again. To a new someone else who is worthy. Maybe?  Insya  Allah. (,”)

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m takin’
I ain’t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light

I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
The risk that I’m takin’
I’m never gonna shut you out

(Hmmmm…Miaow!) : Love Will Find A Way. (,”)

KIARA:
In a perfect world
One we’ve never known
We would never need to face the world alone

They can have the world
We’ll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smart
But somewhere in my secret heart

I know
Love will find a way
Anywhere I go
I’m home
If you are there beside me

Like dark turning into day
Somehow we’ll come through
Now that I’ve found you
Love will find a way

KOVU:
I was so afraid
Now I realize
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies

There’s a perfect world
Shining in your eyes

KIARA and KOVU:
And if only they could feel it too
The happiness I feel with you

They’d know
Love will find a way
Anywhere we go
We’re home
If we are there together

Like dark turning into day
Somehow we’ll come through
Now that I’ve found you
Love will find a way

I know love will find a way

Exceeding 50,000 Views (Asmara) : Welcoming The Fasting Month Of Ramadhan 2010.

As of lately, the blog attracts quite an extraordinary traffic (than usual); no lesser than 200 views per day. But of course like I mentioned, this is not a celebrated blog so obviously it is a meagre statistical record. So, exceeding 50,000 views is no biggie-deal! LOL!  Nonetheless, that isn’t the case although I have to admit it is rather amusing to know that certain keywords are used to access the blog from Yahoo! Searches Engine such as:

1. “Shahrill Ramli”
2. “SK Serendah”
3. “SK Sultanah Asma”
4. “In Mind Of Childlike”
5. “Fuck Off” (oops!)
6. “Siti Facebook”
7. “Angelina Jolie”; “tattoos”, “Jolie tattoos”
   
8. “Allah”
9. “Knife With Blood”
10. “Cheshire Cat” & “Ayam Penyet”

Anyway, enough of the blog’s statistical-and-numerical record since its establishment on 27th May 2008. I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone I love ‘A Happy Welcoming of Ramadhan Al-Kareem.’ May this year’s month of fasting proves to be the holiest and sincerest and most meaningful of all, Insya Allah.

And yes, I am so excited and happy. Hmmmmm… (,”)

Oh…! Begini Rasanya…

English Panels On The Loose. Spirited Away. Kris Jenner Goes Punctured. Endless Influenza.

This week, the last week before Ramadhan proves to be yet another dramatic one (like usual, sigh!). On Monday, the English Panels (Panitia Bahasa Inggeris) organized a pre-farewell get together for the UNISEL trainees at KFC Rawang.  My school English Panel has always been a funky yet professional in working. It’s nice to be able to work with all my English Panel sisters and learn from them. They are always generous in helping me mastering the arts of teaching English yet very sporting and happy go-lucky.

On yesterday, Friday 6th August 2010, few senior colleagues conducted a Pot Luck and also co-celebrating birthday of Kak Kam & Kak Yati. Foods like “Nasi Impit”, buns-with-sausages, Singapore beehoon, fried macaronis, “rambutan” and “langsat” were few delicacies and fruits served. It was indeed mouth-watering affair! While eating, Kak Tini, Cikgu Wazir, Cikgu Shazrul & I were talking and suddenly stories about mysticism popped out. My school has always known for its mystical creatures dwelling in various part of school buildings. Ustaz Kamaruzzaman is said to have locked ‘them’ in some compartments and rooms. And so happen with the school area is on a hilly ground, it makes a perfect lair for the creatures to dwell in.

As a Moslem, it is one of the pillar of faith to believe on the existence of mystical beings or ‘ghaib’. That is why I never boast on this thing and always pray to Allah SWT to protect my eye-sight from seeing these things. I am not a curious cat and neither has the ‘peacock pig-headed’ attitude. Never mess up with supernatural forces. Respect them, we must. Anyway, chain of mystical stories started to unravel from the Qiyamulail Night ( last week!), early in the morning in Teachers’ Room, being perched on the mystical being-and-ginger-is-used-to-get-rid-of-the-evil-spirit,  having the same nightmare while being ‘perched on’ and many more! The stories do make my hair stands and can’t help imagine them. I honestly feel like I am now in a sequence of “Spirited Away.” I just hope I won’t encounter with one of them. Ya Allah!

At first, I planned to spend weekend at Serendah since I have to replace a teacher to teach Science Year 6 for BAKSI tuition. But we only plan and God’s will is the ultimatum. So happen, that around 5 P.M. after I woke up from my nap, the electricity has gone, like always in Serendah! It always takes quite a while for the electricity to resume and with the mystical stories still freshly lingering in my head, I spontaneously plan to go to Putrajaya and come back to Serendah just in time to teach at 10.30 A.M. tomorrow(Saturday)!  I wouldn’t risk myself to be in the pitch-dark night!

In Putrajaya, I had nightmare last night around 2.30 P.M. and couldn’t sleep after that. The mystical stories were vivid in my head (some who read this might be laughing but it’s just not funny when you were in the situation!) and I couldn’t close my eyes to resume sleep. Woke up to the kitchen and I noticed I am alone in the first floor. Try to resume sleep back but prove to no avail. At last; by putting my embarrassment aside, I knocked Kakak’s door and sleep with Kakak, Abg Zam & Rifqi!!! I know it sound funny when you read this but it wasn’t in that time because what happened in the school was so close to me in my surrounding and when you hear that, it makes you chill-to-the-bone. It’s supernatural forces. Ghaib. The existence is mysterious yet they are with us. And that is unnerving. Really unnerving.

An addition to the drama; today, on the way to Serendah; just after I entered the ELITE highway, my motorcycle a.k.a. Kris Jenner (I named it/her after Kim Kardashian’s mother. Love the programme and as my motor is of Kris brand) tyre punctured! OH MY GOD! Luckily I didn’t go that far. By hook or by crook, I had to U-turned back to Putrajaya. Luckily it was the hind-tyre so I still can drive the motorcycle albeit slowly and shakily! At first, I thought I had to find a shop in Bangi and so happened that after I arrived at Precint 14, Abg Zam told me that there is a workshop in nearby Precint Diplomatic. Thank God! The Apek was friendly and his customer service is good. TQ so much Apek/ Uncle. But anyway it was too late for me to push off to Serendah for the tuition. So, I msg-ed Kak Lin although feel kinda bad for that.

And as I am writing this, I am having continuous and endless flu/cold/running nose from this morning! Panadol Soluble and Abg Zam’s tablet for running nose still couldn’t alleviate it. Possibly a viral infection? I don’t know. Getting lethargic…. sigh.

SK Serendah PIBG Charity Dinner 2010. Weekend Movie Marathon (“Salt”.”Sorcerer’s Apprentice”.”Inception”).

It’s a hectic and busy life for Shahrill Ramli. To recap the Charity Dinner Night on 26th July 2010 in which I was acting as the Master of Ceremony (MC) & playing the ‘anklung’ with the ensemble teachers; it was indeed a tiring and topsy-turvy yet enjoyable and memorable. The dinner; which was a joint-venture event between the school staffs and the PIBG was held at Dewan Komuniti Serendah, Hulu Selangor and were honored by few guests from Pejabat Pendidikan Daerah Hulu Selangor. The charity dinner was initiated to raise fund for the betterment of school’s infrastructures.

On whole, I had to say that it takes a great deal to become an MC. You have to be spontaneous whenever your authorities wants to change the tentative according to what they feel best and suits the current atmosphere irregardless any fixed schedules being planned. You also is potentially NOT TO JOIN your colleagues or savoring the meals as you always would have to be on guard on the stage to make sure there would be no hiatus in the scene! Honestly, I didn’t really enjoy doing it although it was a golden “debutante” opportunity for me as a greenhorn teacher in the provincial Serendah to bond with the community. Nonetheless, amidst some hiccups caused by the intervention of  ‘unwanted authorities’, everything went well and some of the PIBGs members congratulated me for making a great debut as an MC.

Anyway, this weekend was a bit free after two packed weekends. But, the schedule was so congested till the last minutes of Friday evening where I had to co-assisting other teachers in facilitating Indoor & Outdoor Games/ Recreations for Year 6′s Qiyamulail ( Night Spending for Selves-Disclosure). The other teachers were trying to coax me to spend night there but I objected as Next-Couzy/ Godsis Darweena was coming with husband, Syam to listen to the preview of Skor A at Kota Damansara. Right at 7.30 P.M., they arrived at Serendah and off we went to Kota Damansara. It was a nice talk given by the Skor A promoters; listening to the captivating plans and wealth managements advices. A relapsing reminiscences to the corporate world I now left for almost 3 years. After that, we had dinner at Hainan cafe; joined with Dek Qah’s fiance, Edi.

On Saturday, pushed off to Putrajaya. Met up with Kord at The Mines and watched “Salt”. I had to say Angie once again proved herself as the impeccable action and drama stars. She really embodied the character Evelyn Salt and her stunts were amazing and inspiring (she did all her stunts on her own, by the way). With this flick being coined as “Bond meets Bourne”, “Salt” definitely elevates feminism into a new silver screen paradigm with head nodding and standing ovation! Kudos to Angie! I give 3.5 stars outta 5 for “Salt.”

Saturday night; went out with Abg Razak (also at The Mines) watching “The Sorcerer’s Apprentice”; a re-make from Disney’s 1940s animation of the same title. What can I say about this flick? TWO THUMBS UP! The suspense, the comic relieves, the CGIs were all brilliantly embroidered into one light and entertaining movie! I give this 4.5 stars outta 5 stars! Nicholas Cage and Alfred Molina both portrayed effortless yet great acting! This is Jerry Bruckheimer’s franchises; NO WONDER. The new starlet cast as the apprentice namely Jay Baruchel really adds the naivety and innocence to the protagonist’s character.

I ended up the movie marathon for the weekend with the last movie on Sunday afternoon at Alamanda, Putrajaya with Kord on the highly-buzzed “Inception” which boasts ensemble of star-studded casts such as Leonardo Di Caprio, Marion Cotillard, Ellen Page, Ken Watanabe, Joseph Gordon-Levitt , Tom Berenger, and many more! This was actually a heavy movie which demands movie-goers to think with all its concepts and terminologies. Basically, it’s about embedding ideas into the minds of strangers and try to manipulate the minds by penetrating through it layers by layers. A group of ‘dream’ expertises were able to construct a mirrored-to-the-reality world in the dream and convinced the victims that it was a real one. The CGIs were impressive and Christopher Nolan has done great job as the director, I think. In my opinion, Nolan has build his own reputation as dark-type movie makers; the likes of my most favorite; Tim Burton. On whole, I give the movie 4 stars outta 5.

A busy social calendar events diary, Shahrill Ramli.