Memoirs Of A Broken Heart..

beenWell…. it’s been a while since i last jot down my mind-boggling world in this very virtual memoir…erm, where shall we start?well muh sista’s wedding went smooth sailing, Alhamdulillah! it was Ok altho i did cried masa akad nikah tuh…hehee,and kak lia and kakak also cried..yeah rite! Da’ cameraman of the day cried!Well…Okla…at least her part of life dah stttle…erm bila la muh turn plak..hehee..pretty scary especially when im already "Booked" to be menantu fer sum of my mum’s fren…yeah i know they are trying to pull legs but sumhow it sounds so real…scary, matchmaking marriage?Eww….anyway, hari dah 19hb..lagi 2 hari 21hb; result keluar…i hope muh premonition’s true altho tak mencapai target!…well…im kinda dissapointed but at the same time felt grateful..alhamdulillah…ni baru nak gi jumpa dr hasnah..she said she’s having sumthing to be done…tu la gi makan lunch with efy at the cut-to-D-throat Suharidz…erm, what else/oh yeah! yesterday my father called and he said that Jitra’s flooded..so it’s better not fer me to NOT going back fer the time being..yikes…i dunno la…my project pulak so far i think is O-t-the-K…the compost pile dah hampir penung (setinggi 1 meter)..i hope i get the approval from dr hasnah and work my ass in the lab phase!Lately, i dunt really feel comfortable..i mean..everynow and then ppl are SO not comfortable with em selves..whether their looks, appearance, body etc…i guess im experiencing the same pathetic symptoms..ONLy that im not fake bimbo wannabe who keep saying that "IM FAT" but sebenarnya skinny to the bone…if u really wanna be skinny, Y dunccha just opt fer diuretic?! I mean..tht’s teh solution that would solve da problem!Aih..im also been experiencing this trauma mencari pekerjaan..i mean, cum on la..lagi satu semester to go be4 i begin my real life as the citizen of society and starting to mingle with those dorks and unworthy  ppl of boring-bony unpolished adults!and I’ll bet all the way of this,i’ll meet those backstabbers,badmouthed,talk-back-behind fags,and etc…yikes..i know the world’s NOT perfect but yeah…who cares! As long as my self’s not hurt!Talking abt confidence..i guess im beginning to build it along the way! Alhamdulillah…i think i can feel the impact ..fer example semester ni! The very last semester (first sem of third year) has been quite nice fer me…erm, i dunt really associate muh-self with "mulut itik"s, pondan-wannabe-but-cover-in front of girls-but-accuse other of being- COVERs,bakcstabbers,etc!That’s good tho’ becoz i think that mingling with em (altho they are good ppl really!) can sumhow menyebabkan tambaha dosa dan the risk of ruining persahabatan adalah tinggi because these ppl are SO double face…example: They hate U but they pretend to like U! Duh, i mean, cum on! Im the kinda person who can feel the aura…i can play along with u sampai u crack ur own identity…then,that’s teh time where i will be the bitch those ppl haS BEEN saying abt!so far, the journey’s OK…well,u know wht tehy say…"iN THE eND…i’S ME, MYSELF & I tht all I got :!