Yesterday just sent the CPU to a CC Blue dream ,courtesy of Ween and Ajrie yg tolong do the talking and being the chauffeur (betui ker spelling ni?!tak pasti so check ur lexicon plzz)….wait fer coupla days utk fix i think!The Donchha Club had dinner at mapley last nite and we then headed fer a brief Karaoke session (LOL!)..It was a jovial (weee!)Anyway, today kat solat jumaat this khatib who preached sermon about the meaning of independence was like so enthusiasted in lashing out media fer over highlighting the hooplas of Siti Nurhaliza’s wedding; which i think is something good!Nonetheless, what really irked me was that it’s the same all ole’ preaching comparison about how this artiste ‘terkinja-kinja’ with a low class mindset are idolised by teens nowadays…haha,dont get me wrong!I’m not defending Siti Nurhaliza for all of these but what really annoyed me was the same old cliche pendekatan yg digunapakai oleh the khatib(which i’m sure meant well but then again kalau they bersemangat to preach the sermon yg obviously banyak sungguh kata-kaya sususnan berbunga yg naik pening bila mendengarnya) who personally i think sengaja nak menggunakan pendekatan kata-kata PEDAS untuk menyedarkan khalayak..then again,it’s this same person who bagi the sermon (he got this kinda habit of preaching sermon in a sing-a long manner;more like a typical debat melayu style!)..No offense but i just bagitau apa yg i rasa nnoyed..i mean kahtib also a human although as much as i respect ’em as wise knwldegable person:they also ada kelemahan..like me and evryone else!
This week has been a bad one for me: for a start!On whole,my social calendar isn’t in a suicidal state : as the matter of fact kinda cheery…EXCEPT my lovelife seemingly So s*cky these days!:( Benda yg i paling pantang dgn org (including friends and llovers!) ialah when i send messages,poeple who dont reply back!I cukup pantang!janji pun tak tepati!typical type!…Argh!In addition…im having a already 2 days insomnia and my PC kena virus which is a souvenir daripada folder lecture notes BST of Muzem’s (although not sure whether it’s his or not since he’s been denying the fact the virus potential existing: no biggie:i’m not blaming him)..To begin, the first day i arrived to USM i was about to take my shower when i realized i took the wrong key (to long to explain) and ended up locked outside with towel..i was so freaking out and was really panic since i was alil bit tired and there i was locked with nuthing but towel to wrap my underneath.I was tryin so hard to unlock the door; even tried to use a broom to open up drawer via a window!Hnetak punya hentak the door but obviously tak boleh buka: a gang of juniors who were about to head for their classses saw me clucthing the tombol and seemingly undeniably freaking out tried to help me by using cards and even offer to lend me respectives handsets to call up my roomate..LOL,i tak ingat my roomate’s hp!they then decided to search my roomate kat canteen if so happen kalau2 Rusok,muh roomate ada situ!Scared of being alone, i went up to Khai’s room,borrow his pants and about to head for office utk replacement key when i finally saw the door of muh room dah terbuka!Thank God!….Lepas dah pasang my PC i thought bolehlah nak guna komputer maybe starting typing muh Tugas Khas and all the academic stuffs…but alas!Whaaaa!Tensen gila bila asik restart jar: Viruses strut their stuffs! B*Bi !!!!!! Memang tak tenang lah sbb malam tuh plak i was having this insomnia …feel so f*cked up!yesterday went to recce for tusiyen enviroment and maybe akan ganti tempat efy mengajar next week kot..I’m about to teach English and Biology,Insya Allah (fer the sake of money!):Went out dinner wit Ween,Ajrie and Ween’s roomate and after hantar both pegi meeting, me and ween went for a night air kat Gurney drive,lepak2 tepi pantai…It was relaxing releasing tension…around 12.30AM,we headed back to USM,pegi makan kat restoran Muhibah at Ivory Plaza (opposite USM):kinda tranquil jar situ..bowrink!Ni petang ni i plan of hantar muh pc to CC la untuk fix!Duit lagi.….tensen!dahlah im really tired sbb insomnia semalam dan amali BST hari ni takde praktikal tapi diganti dgn this theoretical explanation dlm kelas tutor (the usual yawning-ly bowrink!):maybe i’m planning to turun KL this coming 28th August with my godsis Ween kot ;releasing all this tense!Albeit KL mesti sesak that day sbb Persandingan Siti at KLCC that day…well,just a plan la this Road trip to KL..Anyway im listening to this track by Saving Jane entitled "Girl Next Door" (courtesy of Myspace Music which is actually a virtual library fer music!) whose lyric is typically all this teens’ dilema of being either a popular or a geek: the kinda genre that Lutfi fancies most! Hhaa..I personally pity wannabes (people who try so hard) to fit in in enviroment sekeliling mereka..I believe all of us should love ourselves for who we are and never ashamed of yourselves!This song is for those yg dulu masa kat highschool low profiles and invisibles(ahaks):-
GIRL NEXT DOOR by "Saving Jane"
Small town homecoming queen
She’s a star in this scene
There’s no way to deny she’s lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she’s ugly
Maybe I’m just jealous-I can’t help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her
She is the prom queen, I’m in the marching band
She is a cheerleader, I’m sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk, I’m sleeping on the floor
She’s Miss America
And I’m just the girl next door
Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutante
Everything that you want
Never too harsh or too demanding
Maybe I’ll admit it, I’m a little bitter
Everybody loves her, but I just wanna hit her…
I don’t know why I’m feeling sorry for myself
Spend all my time wishing that I was someone else
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She’s Miss America
And I’m just the girl next door
p/s : Totally a lyric reflecting a life of a highschool*LOL*
Finally, the most sought after wedding billed as the "Wedding of The Year" between Malaysian chanteuse Siti Nurhaliza and her ‘prince’ Datuk Khalid crystalizzed on the fateful 21st August 2006..Despite the 20 years difference between the couple,Siti certainly looked preety amazing in the white traditional attire embriodered with diamonds imported from france, I think.I aint gonna retaliate about the wedding although i was kinda sympathized towards Tengku zawyah and her children: I’m happy for my favorite singer Siti Nurhaliza who finally found her "Destination of Love"! The ‘akad nikah’ was majestically held in a classic Malay-Islamic traditions and I must say I’m pround to see such legacy exhibited throughout nation…the potrayal of our Malay heritage was certainly a blow away(<")! Kudos to her!Anyway when i saw her wedding,I did pciture my sister’s wedding months ago..How time flies!For whatever reasons may arisen,Siti just knows how to tackle her fans’ hearts and this is the power that make her so enchanting..The more u wanna HATE her,the more u’ll be intoxicated about her>>>the recipe : HER DIPLOMATIC TALKING!this girl knows how to handle her crowd and that’s why I adore her!! Selamat Pengantin Baru Datin Siti Nurhaliza…..
p/s : ‘Destination of Love’ is actually a translated title of her song ‘Destinasi Cinta’.You can hear the song in muh main page.
Beauty is a subjective element..u can neither transcript nor etch the definite meaning in absolute manner..people always say taht beautiful people are blessed people becouase obviously they have the POWER to make others weak at knees!Tapi sebetul-betulnya adakah soal kehidupan atau mungkin cliche-nya,soal hati semuanya terletak pada looks?Ini semua adalah ketentuan-Nya dan mengapa kadang kala banyak yg suka mempertikaikannya?Baiklah, mungkin org yg pembaca masih tertanya2 kenapa tiba2 saya memilih utk menyentuh subjek yg agak rawan intipatinya ni..saya taknak katakan apa-apa cuma di sini ingin melahirkan apa yg terbendung dalam firasat. Sering kali org mengaitkan wajah dgn involvment in relationship..true,looks could get u involve in many POTENTIAL relationships but it could just take u as far as first impression!the rest semuanya bukan sbb looks!Saya agak bengang dgn question yg selalu diajukan to me(which is i think hundreds time!) yg sellau mengaitkan my looks with my relationships!They say (most of them,I’m not here to brag or whattsoever so if anyone who are just itchy to retaliate back :please dont read further!) with muh look I could score many relationship in my claws and keep giving me these LAME CYNICAL-PROVOCATIVE bragging about their lives and how they differ from me although they are less-fortunate lookin’…er HELLO?Dont these people understand that fates are destined by God?!Sad but true..I’m not a promiscuous hedonistic who f*cks around! No one night stands or ‘love u-bye u’ attitude!just becouase i’m stilla virgin (yes people,guys’ also are called virginity if were to be untainted :p) doesnt’t mean i’m a loveless person!I’m just sick of the trend nowadays that people are losing virginities earlier than they are supposed to (forget marriage!those people yg runtuh akhlak no more respect teh sanctity of marriage!) and guess wht: they are so PROUD and BRAGGING abt it!Puh-leeze a##holes!they even bangga to exhibit lovebites to friends! Ok,i’m not trying to be this angelic pious or whatsoever becouase who knows one day if my iman goyah I maybe have sex out of wedlock (ya Allah,harap my iman masih kuat,Insya Allah!) but to actually sweitch partners like ur switching shirts?and not to say that but engaged in menage a trois?EWWWW!ok wahtever!i dont wanna write long essay here coz i’m sure that this lil’ much WILL cause uproar…it’s just an expression of my disgust over the morality of so called ‘modern and urban hips people’ (yeah,my a## modern konon!pirah!)..smooching locking HOT lips togezzer isn’t a weirdo thing anymore these days…so ironic,isnt it?SNAP!I’m doing all the controversy again:anyone would like to add acidic retaliation?*whatever!
p/s : even the most beautiful woman in the planet Aishwarya Rai is traditional at heart!and she doesn’t sleep with dozens of men who I’m sure DYING to get into her pants!Why do people like to brag to others although they are actually piece of stinking sh*t?*smirk*…
Days back in hometown aka comfort zone is indeed very comforting….away from all the hulabaloo of angst,alienation of secrecy and of course ‘volcanic eruption-to-be potentials"…Today, went out with ayah to fix my precious Esprit spectacle yg tetiba ter-unscrew plak: after that me and mak went for a visit to kampung Padang melawat Tok and Wan..well,it was a nice visit and Tok , being this unpredictable woman fired me "Ai,minggu lepas bukan mak hang antaq pi aloq staq ka?"Hahhaa..i was stunned by that(ala-ala balik almost every week kan?!): I was laughing like hell and balas la : "Dah kat sana pensyarah pi kluaq negeri..takdak apa dari dok sana buang duit baik balik"…hehee and here’s the juiciest part! My grandma retaliated back sambil tersengih : "Hehhee..balik pun bukan buang duit ka?" ARGHHHHHH! that time felt like a big rock humped upon muh head!Heheh,that’s why i like talking to muh grandma,her spontaeinity mmg unpredictable dan menggelikan hati kekadang tuh..I pun retaliated back :"Hhhaa,awat Tok cemuih (bore) ka dok mai?"…She grinned and secretly I had the feeling she was enjoying herself ‘tormenting’ me and said "Dak aihh!Mai la awat tak mai plak?!"…well,that’s muh grandma! anyway, she was like excitedly showed us the kolam yg dia join ventured with ayah bela ikan keli and it seemd that musim kemarau nih the water dah seep away jadi cetek!sambil bagi makan dedak for fishes, dia sempatlah dok cerita yg Cu ‘Ak dapat new son…I was like "Duh,I dont even know that Mak Su was pregnant?! WHATEVER!" and tanya Tok ni pasai mengandung ka beranak?She was laughing like hell (albeit enjoying the moment!) kata dah keluaq dah pun!well,that’s news for me GRANDMA!*grin*…anyway, just hanged around kat rumah dia fer a while and having casual conversation kat pangkin luar (kinda veranda sorta) and had tea time with Tok and Wan: they are just lovely folks! Before the departure, i sempat kacau Tok :" Tok,kalau yen balik minggu depan yen mai lagi lah..kita jumpak minggu depan lah!"..she with her toothless mouth (hahaa,but of course courtesy of the artificial teeth,she could chew foods) grinned :"Mai la..mana ada Tok cemuih!"..hehee..well,that’s a lil’ bit of my visit to dear old Kampung Padang(,")…
I watched my favorite MTV’s TRL(Total Live Requests) and had the opportunity to see Miss Jesicca Simpson’s "A Public Affair" video clip!Well,honestly i think i just love the theme of the clip! She wear this famous 70’s roller blade and was like dancing on those ..plus i noticed there are actually 3 other celebrities yg buat cameo apperance in the videoclip! They are Christina Millian,Christina Applegate and shockingly…Eva Longoria!But yeah,i enjoyed it immensely with the 70’s theme(I’m actually a 70’s freak:love the era’s fashion and music!)…Beyonce’s video clip "Deja Vu" is superb and she was like the dancing diva collabaorated with sweetheart Jay-Z:directed by Sophie Muller whose famous direction included Maroon 5’s"She Will Be Loved" and Gwen Stefani’s "Cool", the video clip is fantastic! Beyonce is the ultime DREAMGIRL!(her upcoming movie!)..and also in Channel V,there’s this review about Pussy Cat Dolls‘ recent perfromance at malaysia and the PCD’s fanatic fan :VJ Joey G get to meet them and was like having weak knees(who doesnt?! waaah, he get to meet Nicole!)..hahaa,he was like having goosebumped and very shaken and Im kinda jealous when tehre’s a shot where he was taking pictures hungging by ALL the Pussy Cat Dolls!Argh!!!!..hehee..anyway,Above all despite all the dissapoinment and devastation I’m experiencing due complication in muh relationship with muh-boo,I’m making it up to just forget abt everything and enjoy every moment now with whatever I most have passion for: MUSIC! Yeah..I know it’s hard to forget coz everything seems like deja vu but …..whatever*!
Beyonce’s "DEJA VU"
Know that I can’t get over you
‘Cause everything I see is you
And I don’t want no substitute
Baby I swear it’s Deja Vu
P/S : think you are loveless! Sh*t!
Most of my friends mengenali saya sbg peminat setia Siti Nurhaliza…benar mmg saya peminat setianya, I listen to her songs, i buy her albums,I even defended her when she was make fun of (about her bad english and so on)….but so sad to say that these days, kesukaan saya terhadap Siti Nurhaliza dah pudar tambahan pulak selepas dia gagal menjelaskan kedudukannya yg sebenar dgn Datuk K : adakah dia membuat perhubungan semasa Datuk K was a married man,etc…then again,mesti ader pembaca di luar sana yg kata apa nak kesah hal tangga orang…yep,mmg betul tapi bagi para peminat it’s a big deal dan ingat saya telah pun sentuh pasal peperangan di palestin jadi jgn cuba nak retaliate kata isu perkahwinan artis dok gebang, isu peperangan Muslim plak tak diuar-uarkan! saya tertarik untuk highlight artikel tulisan dalam Berita Harian yg frankly speaking merupakan satu-satunya artikel yg tak bias (memihak kepada Siti Nurhaliza) dan tumpuan lebih didamba pada Tengku Zawiyah, ex wife Datuk K…Ok,ini bukanlah fitnah jadi tolong baca sebelum nak menuduh,Ok (peringatan pada semua org!) :
Walaupun menghadapi saat paling getir dalam hidupnya, Tengku Zawyah masih mampu tersenyum. Dia juga kelihatan cukup tenang dan tabah menghadapi situasi itu.
Barangkali itu hanya gambaran fizikal luar Tengku Zawyah kerana dalam hati siapa yang tahu. Tidak mustahil tersimpan luka yang cukup mendalam. Masakan tidak, 20 tahun hidup bersama bukan mudah untuk dia melupakan saat suka duka bersama.
Biarpun dia memanjatkan kesyukuran kerana semua masalahnya kini selesai, namun tidak akan semudah itu lukanya sembuh.
Keadaan juga sedikit tegang kerana berlaku pertengkaran antara media dan pengawal peribadinya serta adegan tolak menolak.
Meskipun dikhabarkan ke semua anak-anak pasangan itu termasuk Mohd Anas, 19, dan Mohd Azif, 7, merestui perkahwinan bapa mereka dengan Siti Nurhaliza namun kemungkinan besar mereka tidak hadir di majlis perkahwinan kali kedua bapa mereka.
Petikan yg diambil daripada Berita Minggu ini membuka hati saya bahawa manusia hanya manusia..tiada yg sempurna : NOBODY’S THAT INNOCENT…mungkin selama ni masayrakat dibutakan dgn imej yg dipaparkan media?!Tepuk dada tanya minda…..
Yeah,I have been making updating my friendster’s blog as a routine…so whoever tak satisfy I guess they can just keep they goldfish stinking mouth shut!This week is the Convocation Week and all of my acquaintances and friends who had completed their courses in USM will be graduating officially! As for me, I just fly back to Jitra,Kedah..Well, some of them might think I come back here because i ‘malu’ kerana tak graduate dgn mereka: well,i don’t wanna couase uproar dlm garapan ni sbb saya tahu byk rakan-rakan yg membacanya tapi hanya satu yg saya ingin tegaskan..I never ashame sbb tak dapat graduate dgn anda semua sebab bukannya saya GAGAL dalam subjek atau FAIL: i just happen to drop my final year project sbb i dont have confident and of course due to the cold war aka rift happened between me and muh ex supervisor Dr Cacing!LOL,with that kinda situation, who would sacrifice his PNGK just for the sake of not losing face nak graduate on the same year dgn others?!That must be stupid! But then again,I see no point of staying kat USM since : 1)tak terlibat dgn konvo ; 2)my class hanya akan ada next week Rabu; 3)I was occupied with alienation and recent dissapointment: 4)tak ada daya penolak utk saya stay di USM since I dont really feel connected to most of my coursemates (but of course some of you yg very dearly la..U guys know who you are and have been very dearly towards me,thanx!)…but yeah mostly I just dread to meet them becouase I dont find any excitement…nonetheless, I’m wishing them a very best convocation and may all of us (including me) succeed in finding jobs…anyway,this is your guys BIG day,so enjoy them immensely before nak pening2 pikir pasal job next week onwards kan?As for me, sorry I wont be giving any flowers since I know none of you guys will come to my graduation day (just fer teh sake of giving present?!PUH-LEEZE!no one’s taht dumb!LOL) so..hehee..i guess my present is just my prayer to u guys and yeah…one more thing: I’m not ashame to face any of you just becouase I tak graduate lagi yer (hhaa,stressing this coz dah ader bunga-bunga khabar angin ni bakal meletus nih!hehe)..until one succeed in one’s ULTIMATE GOAL : finding jobs or Master,etc,then that can be considered as malu yer!Anyway, memula cadangnya nak balik esok tetapi sumthing came out that made me felt a lil’ bit alienated triggered my decision nak balik arini dan kena plak ayah nak amik muh cousin,Kak Niah who worked as a policewoman at Balai Lebuh Pantai…It was a joyfulride dan mulut pun letih asyik cakap ngan kak niah all the way from png to kedah..above all,I hope my staying kat sini menenangkan hati saya ni…..