Yeah,I have been making updating my friendster’s blog as a routine…so whoever tak satisfy I guess they can just keep they goldfish stinking mouth shut!This week is the Convocation Week and all of my acquaintances and friends who had completed their courses in USM will be graduating officially! As for me, I just fly back to Jitra,Kedah..Well, some of them might think I come back here because i ‘malu’ kerana tak graduate dgn mereka: well,i don’t wanna couase uproar dlm garapan ni sbb saya tahu byk rakan-rakan yg membacanya tapi hanya satu yg saya ingin tegaskan..I never ashame sbb tak dapat graduate dgn anda semua sebab bukannya saya GAGAL dalam subjek atau FAIL: i just happen to drop my final year project sbb i dont have confident and of course due to the cold war aka rift happened between me and muh ex supervisor Dr Cacing!LOL,with that kinda situation, who would sacrifice his PNGK just for the sake of not losing face nak graduate on the same year dgn others?!That must be stupid! But then again,I see no point of staying kat USM since : 1)tak terlibat dgn konvo ; 2)my class hanya akan ada next week Rabu; 3)I was occupied with alienation and recent dissapointment: 4)tak ada daya penolak utk saya stay di USM since I dont really feel connected to most of my coursemates (but of course some of you yg very dearly la..U guys know who you are and have been very dearly towards me,thanx!)…but yeah mostly I just dread to meet them becouase I dont find any excitement…nonetheless, I’m wishing them a very best convocation and may all of us (including me) succeed in finding jobs…anyway,this is your guys BIG day,so enjoy them immensely before nak pening2 pikir pasal job next week onwards kan?As for me, sorry I wont be giving any flowers since I know none of you guys will come to my graduation day (just fer teh sake of giving present?!PUH-LEEZE!no one’s taht dumb!LOL) so..hehee..i guess my present is just my prayer to u guys and yeah…one more thing: I’m not ashame to face any of you just becouase I tak graduate lagi yer (hhaa,stressing this coz dah ader bunga-bunga khabar angin ni bakal meletus nih!hehe)..until one succeed in one’s ULTIMATE GOAL : finding jobs or Master,etc,then that can be considered as malu yer!Anyway, memula cadangnya nak balik esok tetapi sumthing came out that made me felt a lil’ bit alienated triggered my decision nak balik arini dan kena plak ayah nak amik muh cousin,Kak Niah who worked as a policewoman at Balai Lebuh Pantai…It was a joyfulride dan mulut pun letih asyik cakap ngan kak niah all the way from png to kedah..above all,I hope my staying kat sini menenangkan hati saya ni…..
Behind Brown Eyes