The World Thought I Have It All. But I’m Waiting For You.
The game of predatory instinct sometimes is weird. There are time as if like I’m already givin up to playing hanky-panky. It’s nice to just flirt around everynows and thens but all the excitement just fade away the moment I’m end up alone (for instance like whenever it’s just me and the computer in this bedroom of mine NOW). Too picky? I don’t think so but yeah sure, being selective is all me. Too pushy? Yeah I guess so. I like to send bajillion messages to my crushes and when they (GOD, are there many peeps Ive been habouring crush? pathetic) didnt send any reply, my volcanoes erupts and I will start throwing tantrum and they would be like in a bewilderment. Geez~ I’m not gonna scream my lungs out that I fancy them (am I too egoistic?). I don’t think there is such a perfect love in this world and that makes me anxious because I’m a perfectionist. I want everything to be perfect! Sometimes there are times when you think you have found IT : tengok2x there ‘ve got to be some spoilers TURN OFF factors. *sigh*.
I think I will give myself 5-10 years. If not MAYBE I’m gonna do an Angie-thing. You know, f*ck around and procreates with people with good genetic without having emotinal intact with your partner. I’m just plain weird..and sometimes it does freak me out.
Aku Tak Pandai Mengarang Puisi. Tidak Ku Pandai Bermadah Berseni. Satu Kalimah Yang Ku Seikhlas Tahu. Hanyalah Ku Cinta PadaMu.
P/S : Of course by the time i’m losing my virginity, I wont be telling anyone about it. Hahha~ Just kidding. (I wish!)
* -Hhaha, I purposely put this picture first! Although MU kalah FA Cup and UEFA but we still the English Premier League. Thanks to Zulherly for this awesome piccha of my man CRISTIANO RONALDO and Rio Ferdinand! =p
Suatu permainan yang multifaceted I have to say! Perlawanan akhir yg menjadi tumpuan ramai akhirnya telah berlangsung and witnessed the victory of AC Milan against Liverpool with kemenangan tipis 1-0. Dengan 3/4 daripada penonton stadium di Athens, Greece ini dibanjiri most of Liverpool fans walaupun mengikut sumber Abu Bakar Atan (commentator tu la) 17,000 tiket setiap pasukan dibahagikan samarata tetapi masih banyak yg tak mendapat tiket. The atmosphere was so like a fiesta dgn persembahan prelude pun ada! Wow, how I envied them.
Although Liverpool kalah tetapi pujian harus diberikan kepada Liverpool for showing a very excellent game!. A lot attacks were done and i have to say the ball possesion of Liverpool to AC Milan was nearly a 60%-40% (ikut my observation la) and Liverpool players were very zealous. Permainan daripada AC Milan tidaklah begitu bersemangat (peminat AC Milan jgnla plak bengang) dan defence seems so brittle. AC Milan has been very lucky tonite when Pirlo took the free kick hasil daripada fault Alonso ke atas Kaka ; dilantun ke dalam gol oleh Inzhagi! It is arguable that perhaps sebenarnya terkena tangan Inzhagi but even kalau ya pun, referee tak nampaklah.
Masuk second half, Liverpool became semakin vigorous and Steven Gerrard, the Liverpool Captain plak melakukan if i’m not mistaken 3 serangan yg amat mendebarkan di area penalti. But unfortunatley for Liverpool, pada minit ke-82, Inzhagi sekali lagi berjaya menewaskan the goalkeeper dan menghantar bola leret ke gol Liverpool. He is indeed the saviour tonite for AC Milan’s fans. Tetapi walaupun dalam minit-minit terakhir ni AC Milan mendahului, keadaan mencemaskan bila pertahanan AC Milan digempur dan dalam keadaan genting yg tak diduga minit ke-89 kot, Kuyt of Liverpool berjaya menjaringkan satu gol ! Keadaan bertambah cemas bila masa ditambah 3 minit sebab dlm soccer game, anything can happen within single period of time! But rezki berpihak kepada AC Milan.
Sebenarnya initially, saya nak sokong Liverpool coz i wanna see AC Milan’s a** being kicked for kalahkan Manchester United ari tu..hehe. But i can’t deny the quality yg ada dlm AC Milan, the defence (aggressive Gatusso) and of course the sleek Kaka! But tonite, although AC Milan won, the ball was actually Liverpool’s. Three cheers for both teams!!!
– Written freshly after the match, 5.11am on Thurday 2007.Since I’m very free these days with nothing to do except computer-sleep-watchingTV-playing with Rifqi, I’ve been nurturing a football craze in me lately…=)
Thank you to one of myspace arty guy who did this nice art work of Photoshop. I guess a lot of people out there are super genius with Photoshop but not me ‘coz I don’t have the rpogram and never been using it (so all of my pichhas are 100% authentic!haha!). Anyway, thanks to him and I just wanna share with my friends here the picture. I was hoping he put a kinda dark emaciated shades under my eyes…but well,it’s good nontheless=)
* I know it looks a little bit girlish (which I was a bit taken aback by THAT ‘coz I never know that i could look so vampy !erk?LOL) but it’s a nice feeling to have someone did a picture of you and it turned into something ethereal. Thanks ya =p
Ruth Sahanaya has always been my favorite Indonesian singer in comparison to other female Indonesian chanteuses. Her husky and hoarse voice brings the elegant emotion to the songs she sings. This is one particular song that never fail to make my eyes water whenever I listen to the song. Sounds cliche, corny or cheesy but this song has never fail to make me sedih..
"KELIRU" By Ruth Sahanaya
Di lubuk hatiku tersimpan
Ada rasa bimbang
Yang enggan ku ceritakan
Ternyata baru ku sadari
Yang engkau simpan untukku
Aku cinta kepadamuNamun ku keliru
Aku rindu di pelukmu
Cinta dia dan dirimu
Telah melangkah lubuk
Memberi bimbang di hatinya
Engkau telah berdua
Tak mungkin kurasa
Melepas kasih antara kita
Aku cinta kepadamu
Aku rindu di hatimu (di pelukmu)
Namun ku keliru
Cinta dia dan dirimu
Aku cinta kepadamu
Aku rindu di pelukmu
Ingin ku akhiri
Yang telah terjadi
Lamunan membawamu kembali
Menilai erti cinta kita
Yang kau kira selamanya
Namun ku keliru
Cinta dia dan dirimu
P/S : I know it’s lame and jiwang but yeah…keliru *sigh* What’s this song is all about? Go figure and embrace the lyric yourself. You will understand.
- People who don’t reply my messages or miscalls
- Badmouthers @ Foulmouthed scums @ Rumors Starter
- Double-faced @ Secret tellers
- Unpopular dorks who try so hard to be popular
- Show off ‘fashionistas’
- Stupid bimbos and effeminate guys (pondan) who put too much make up just to get a f*ck!
- Superficial insecure people @ Judgemental
- Fake people but accusing others for being fake!
– I don’t like making enemies. But those who have been or had been my enemies are those with those traits I listed above. I don’t hate people for no reason. But if you are trying to be a smart-a** with me, I will retaliate DOUBLE!
I’m sure that most houses in Malaysia tonite is divided into 2 minds :-
- Watching Finale Akademi Fantasia 5
- Watching Final FA Cup between MU (Manchester United) and Chelsea
Since my mother is the AF most vigorous (YES!) supporter, we have to of course gave priority to watching the finale. And in the hiatus, masa tgh iklan tu, of course we then switched to channel 82. Hahhaha, good to my brother-in-law Abg Zam for being cool about it (hehe,he’s a fanatic)!
Anyway, have to say i’m so PROUD that the talented Penangite petite girl with big voice Mila won the coveted winner AF 5! I’m supporting her not just becoz she’s a Penangite but becoz of her talent. It’s so nice to see people with personality you can identify berjaya and it’s really touching sbb she was always antara pelajar yg tercorot. But every performances she bounces back and oh God! I just love her! Bagoih hang tak buat peleceh orang Penang Mila ! Wazzup wazzup!!!! Unfortunately it’s a DAMN topsy turvy atmosphere plak for the FA Cup Final !!! Manchester United had once again dissapointing us the fan (although manage to bertahan until 2nd extra time kan) !!! Kuisan bola by Drogba (ye kot? lupala nama betul) menjahanamkan impian nak merangkul Piala FA! Bengang la … I mean Van de Sar the goalkeeper ni selalu leka bila game tu dah panjang..huuhuhh. Walaupun kalah 1-0 , still berbanggalah wahai MU fans coz Manchester United is EPL’s champion!!!!
Apa2pun thanks to mi hermana mayor (my older sis) for belanja 2 pizzas! Yep, it’s all latino foods and fun these days! Hhehe..=)
Hidden Dark Desire Is Like A Blade Between The Ribs. It Gets Hungry. It Gets Very Angry.
Indesribable. Nondesripted. Just a trivial matter but I feel like i need to jot down a lil bit to make appeace with my emotional turbulence. What if you had an encounter with a stranger just for a brief moment and you thought the person was a nice, presentable, almost perfect professionalist (erk?ader ke) you have encountered… and you presented the person to your father who at first wasn’t being truth-blunt about it then after for like 3 weeks later blurted out that the person doesn’t seems trustworthy?
Trusting the judgement of parents is the pillar of my belief but when it contradicted with what you thought was right, twinge of ashamed, stupidity and naivety began to dominate. The sense of being so OVERPROTECTED is so overpowering that sometimes you feel you just wanna rebel out, doing something based upon your own judgemental. I’m tired of being tied up in the warm cocoon. And it’s kinda dissapointing when the attempt u have made somehoew potentially could led to a serious fatal implication. I felt myself so stupid… but I guess people learnt from mistakes.
I used to be a couch potato freak. I watched almost every soap operas, reality TV shows, series on television.. Well, that was like ages ago ( not really..i guess 5 years ago and way back then) before I first went out to see the real world; that was going to the matriculation of course. Since then, I barely got into the TV freaks-scene… until now la kan i’m this jobless with the nothing-to-do-except-sleep-computer-tv-novel reading-sleep-play with nephew-sleep schedule. I’m gonna share Yours Truly most desirable TV programmes ( you can refer in my Friendster’s list).
My No.1 would definitely be the hot sensational Miami Ink. I think i have written about this coupla months ago. Ok, for those who are still in the seventh heaven and clouded, this programme is about tattoo. A small bunch of tattoo-ers open this small freakin tattoo shop and within like less tahn a year, their lil’ shop was a household name in Miami and everyone’s just dying to get the lil’-piece-of drilling materpieces by Ami, Nunez, Koji, Kat, and Darren !!!
The second would definitely be Divine Miss Oprah Winfrey’s Show! I love this woman. She embodies confidence and spiritual strength. Oprah practically defies all the odd. She’s a black woman and she was molested when she was 13 years old ! But luckily she had intelligence and spirit to guide her. She’s gone through hell of interviews with personalitis like The Kennedys’ (very exclusive. Not everyone is able to persuade them and The Kennedys’ are very private clan!), the infamous Elizabeth Taylor’s (damn hard to get her answering questions. She was being stoned! Oprah confess that Taylors’ interview was a nightmare!), or maybe the sensational talks with mother-and-daughter Pressleys and Oprah did actually asked Marie Pressley whether or not her marriage to Michael Jackson was a CONSUMMATED !! (ewww darn! Who on earth would talk straight-faced-ly to describe a sexual escapade with Jacko?ERkkk!! * Anyway, Marie confessed it HAPPENED after persuaded by Oprah!). Miss Winfrey also did a lot of charity works including the Katrina Hurricane saviors, African humanities,etc. And she’s being named Forbes’ WEALTHIES WOMAN IN ENTERTAINMENT : she topped Harry Potter’s J.K Rowling who secure the No.2 spot!
The no.3 favorite programme would be the ever phenomenal "Heroes" !!! I just love the intertwined plot (very much like "LOST"). This programmes basically is like a mixture of X-Files and Lost. A bunch of people were abducted by some crooks ( i believed the leader is Mr Lindermann) and were genetically modified. Some radioactive polarized substances were injected in their bodies and resulted them into some kinda mutants with superpowers abilities!
- Hiro Nakamura ; (boleh transfer through time; future, present, past)
- Nikki Sanders ; (split personality. Ada baddy alter ego)
- Micah (Nikki’s Son); (fix something yg tak berfungsi)
- Peter Petrelli; (Initially he can absorb other people’s ability. now mcm tak berkembang plak kuasa dia)
- Isaac Mendez ; (Initially had to be stoned to paint the future)
- Claire ; (the key of the force). A cheerleader with a power to heal herself dari sebarang injuri kebakaran or kemalangan!
Setiap episode mmg mendebarkan (something like reading Stephen King’s novels!) dan we are dying to know what’s next! You know what they say : SAVE THE CHEERLEADER, SAVE THE WORLD !!!
Semakin dewasa ni, I’ve learnt a lot about people. There are so many multifaceted people in this world. I’m talking about Rules Of Attraction here. It may sound provocative or controversial but I’m just saying what I observe :-
- Heterosexual males and females LOVE me
- Homosexual (fags) males HATE me
- Homosexual (lesbo) females LOVE me
- Bisexual LIKE me but they DON’T LOVE me
That’s what I’ve learnt so far! The reason why I wrote this is because there were like so many comments in Myspace (notorious sket in comparison ngan Friendster ni.) yg memang kekadang tuh b*bi. Bila tengok2x sender dia… FAG! I don’t know why these people tak suka me? I mean, I’d very much like the idea that everyone likes me… but you know what they say, different folks come with different strokes !!! Anyway, that’s what I can conclude from my observation. I can actually sense or detect any like-ness or dislike-ness aura in everyone around me. There is some sorta 6th sense I’ve developed (erk?mula nak merapu dah..but it’s true u know!). But of course I don’t say it out loud to the person. As long as the person treat me well, I will act as if nothing happen but I would like to keep my distance away from taht kinda SCUM ! I’m sorry if ada org offended ke haper ke kan but I didn’t mean to angkat bakul or waht. It’s just that setakat ni, these are the pattern of people yg like me and loathe me. Kalao ada yang tak suka saya tuh, saya mulalah meneliti apa sebabnya beliau tak suka saya (disokong oleh faktor-faktor lain juga) ; but most definitely something is wrong when someone hate me for no reason and it has nothing to do with my association to the person. BIG QUESTION MARK HUH?
P/s : Fags in this context ialah gay boy (masculine-looking guys) and pondan (effeminate, hormone-induced, mulut celupar).
* – Tapi surprisingly jambu people (cute looking creatures) have nurse soft spot towards me plak . Aiyah~
Those who might resist @ mengumpat this entry :-
- Boy Bands’ Aficianado macam.. A.L.A (hehehe)
- Peminat2x lagu Natasha Bedingfield’s "Unwritten" setelah mengikuti iklan & rancangan Siti Nurhaliza’s PANTENE (ahaks!)
Have you guys seen Evanescence’s latest videoclip "Sweet Sacrifice"? OH MY GOD! I’m so totally INTO the video clip! I’m loving it! The flamboyant colors, the gory settings are incredible and Amy Lee looks so vampy~ It’s another feather in (or on? tak ingat la proverb ni) the cap for Evanescence after the phenomenal "Call Me When You Are Sober" and "Lithium". Perhaps those who are not so MTV freaks can check the You Tube.com or anywhere in the virtual world for teh videoclip. Anyway, these pictures down here just some snapshots I do when I’m bore. It’s just some chilly sauce. Nontheless i think it’s a beautiful scene, don’t you think? – And about the Bondage CONOTATION above (in case it may cause some uproar), well…it’s just me. BDSM thingies~ ahaks!~ Miaoww!! And Oh, by the way, I’m in the process of finishing another masterpiece by Stephen King called "Four Past Midnight" (recommended by my sister) ! I will write about the horror flick when I finish read it ya!~