The Time Has Come For My Dreams To Be Heard. They Will Not Be Pushed Aside On Words. Into Your Own All ‘Coz You Won’t Listen…!
I’m piss off and at the same time confuse and angry! This morning i got a call from World Class Training Centre Sdn Bhd. Obviously, it was a telescreening interview and the Operations Controller, the so-called Miss Leena Sim asked whether I will be free on Monday for an Interview in Menara MCA, KL. Since I was abruptly woken up by the telephone ringing, I wasn’t nervous at all and the interview went smooth (I meant to say that I was not hesistating or worry about my grammar. everything just flow).
I told my parents about it but they were like being ignorant. My mom told me since Abg Zam is to do kursus to Mekah for Haji then probably no one’s gonna bother about me and it would be difficult if i were to go KL. Furthermore, she went slamming me by saying what for applying those ‘ridiculous’ jobs? Better concentrate on applying for goverments’! I was so appalled by that and EXTRMELY ANGRY & FRUSTRATED! But I didnt say anything (although I did snap back a lil bit). And then they went on saying about why did I apply in KL? How am I to survive there if were to be located at the heart of KL while my sis’s residence is in Bangi? And then there was this argument about transportation. They were like saying who’s gonna fetch me back and from? I told ’em I can ride motorcycle but my father was going BERSERK! He said KL’s dangerous,etc…. I can’t say anything coz then they would say I melawan (back talking) and being ‘kurang ajar’ for talking back to the person who have been taking care you since you are a toddler/ baby; they always say they KNOW THE BEST COZ MAKAN GARAM DULU FROM ME. God!
GOD! I’m so angry at them! Of course Bangi is far but why choice do I have? I guess for a few month going back and fro to Kl-Bangi is Ok until I’m accustomed to the surrounding I think i can perhaps find a residence nearby! Imagine Naz pun ulang alik from Subang to Putrajaya dulu. GOD! Sometimes I don’t understand my parents for being so overprotective! They said they trusted my sis duduk KL dulu coz she already had experience. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO EXPERIENCE ANYTHING IF YOU DON’T LEMME FLYY ??????? DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE APPLIED FOR PRIVATE SECTORES JOBS & ONLY A FEW MADE IT FROM THE PRELIMINARY? For God sake, the job is Sales Executive/ Consultant that requires to call people and do other public-related maintenance. Of course they will provide the training. Even if I were to find kerja ni tak suitble ke after inteview, I can still pull out kan? It would do no harm to just pegi the inteview! I’m so sad with my parents….
I haven’t talk to my sister yet but I guess the verdict is indisputed since it’s on 25th June= Monday. I’m angry with my parents for underestimating me. Of course they care but it’s getting suffocating! God….. I think i will have to reply back to say that I WILL NOT BE ATTENDING THE INTERVIEW. My volcano will erupts pretty soon….
p/s: Beyonce’s "LISTEN" lyric is so bertepatan with my dilemma now… =(
I’m More Than What You ‘ve Made Up Me. I Followed The Voice You THINK You Gave To Me. Now I’ve Gotta Find My Own.