It’s hard… =( But I’m trying.
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Jukebox Mood : "Rehab" by Rihanna feat. Justin Timberlake
And All Of A Sudden When You Left. I Didn’t Know How To Follow. It’s Like A Shot That Spun Me Around. And Now My Heart Left. I Feel So Empty & Hollow.
The holidays I’m having now is simply something needed to remedy all those turbulence dalam kepala hotak semasa working. Very much needed I guess, in a way~ The Hari Raya Aidiladha this year was quite unique. It was not a joyous family affair as most of relatives semua takder kat hometown Jitra ni (Makkah, Lumut, dll) but I kinda treasured it in a way that I got to meet my nephew, Mohd Rifqi Naufal whois now growing chubby-ier and semakin ‘sihat’ under surveillance of Ayah ngan Mak. I just love him to death (although I’m not the typical person who would babysit 24-7! His laughter is sugary indeed, and I understand why every parents treasure their young ones).
Since I need a REAL breakaway, I’ve decided to turun Penang yesterday (22nd December) to alleviate the tantrum-throwing syndrome I’m having due to childish-yearning over The Clown. Initially, ingat nak just roamed around the island with few friends lepas tu balik Kedah malam tu jugak; turned out sampai Penang pun dah pukul 4.15pm; so asked Sharizul Fazlie aka Lie (my faithful ex-roomate) amik and I sorta bunked at his place for a nite; Khirwan, Muzem and Couzy Ween were not available. Lie is still the same person; very tolerable with whatever his friends would have asked him; obliged to my wish to go out watch movie (along with Bob and Lan) "National Treasure 2" kat Queensbay Mall. Hhahaa~ Before that, sempat jugak, he serenaded me with his guitar-playing and croaky voice (ahaks!) singing the song "Dealova" (erk??! I Know!). Sempatlah jugak berpadu suara dengan dia tuh (ahhahaha! geez! hahaha). This whole thing is a sweet reminiscence of those USM years with him and all those Kelate boys during my 2nd and 3rd years (huuhuh)….
Today, went out with Khirwan (been ages! at last!) and we sorta updated each other’s what’s hot-and- what’s not life. Lama tak jumpa him; nostalgic friend who was literally with me during my ups and downs! Really miss those good ole days; and now I’m actually in his office at EUREKA (just take a peekaboo of his working life~ weeez). Tonite, maybe duduk kat rumah Muzem plak and went out with Khirwan & muzem to pesta kot or maybe lepak with Couzy Ween kot. Apap2pun, this is a nice breakaway for me from the hectic schedule back in KL =)
Above all, I really miss my colleagues; till next year baru boleh jumpa all of them; and I don’t get to attend Kareena’s Xmas Eve BBQ!! Sounds corny, melancholic; whatever… Although this breakaway has indeed make me laugh like hell (hehehe; Lie/Khirwan), but I still miss The Clown. Hurm =(
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Everyhing is a mess…=( Just arrive dari Kedah via flight yg di-reschedule dari malam ke morning. After that pegi fix motor yg pancit… Ejun got KPLI and he’s leaving Kajang for good by next month. I dunno why I’m not happy. I guess after this I can’t badger/ kacau him no more or rely on him for any possibilities yg mendatang kot.Kinda sad…=(. These days, everytime balik mesti there’s something yang akan jadi topik pertengkaran between me and Ayah. I guess I’m in the middle of hot-tempered stage of my life these days. Hhuuuhh. I’m never really a good child. Everything is a mess………Anyway, just bought new phone yesterday= Sony Ericcson W-300. My old Nokia 3310 dah rosak masa nak re-charge kat umah Muzem. My appointment with Encik Shariffudin plak due on Thursday. I’m a wrecked ship now. Suddenly I feel lonely & secluded…..*sigh* =(
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So far, experiences in CRC Kelana Jaya has been nice. Although the atmosphere was mostly ‘tranquil’ sebab tak banyak orang, I’ve learnt quite few new things; and the seniors are being very helpful and quite teasers as well (hahah!). And the experience with a so- called "lecherous" rich customer (almost la!) was a bit of eye-opener. I have to confess that I’m not in any whooshy-dreamy sorta atmosphere now; apart from all the hullaballoos in my head yang semalam I wrote kat atas tuh, I have this one thing yang tertambah plak kat kepala hotak ni. I’m in a dilemma; should I submit to the "meaningless-waste of time-useless-means nothing to me" coax of a desperado; or should I just keep waiting for an unknown sign from full-of-pride coward? Geez~! I’m not full-fledge a bad child…..yet.
It’s Like I Checked Into Rehab. Baby You’re My Decease. I Gotta Check Into Rehab ‘Cause Baby You’re My Decease.