After two days of medical leaves (MC), I guess the emotional turbulence begin to cease. Time to pick up and really moves on with life. I simply cannot coop myself forever, mourning about whatever that might or (may) happened; although I have to say it wasn’t goin so well. Still, I am an honest. I speak what I felt and not having qualm embracing the insecurities and all the impurities; up on my sleeves.
Anyway, on Wednesday, i spontaneously decided to go see dentist to pluck my Wisdom Tooth. It just wasn’t something I planned. It’s just one of the few physical torture that I could think to alleviate my emotional meltdown ari tuh. No, I won’t go to the extend of playing with knives and cut myself (which by the way is kinda fascinating idea); and I’m definitely not someone who is like torturing his body for nothing. I just felt that it was the right time at the right moment to deal with excruciating pain, blood and piercing drills. Well, I won’t go detail on it; it was a no-biggie dental issue; the ernomously big tooth was succesfully plucked out from my gum. Yeah, I won’t attached the picture of my wisdom tooth – but hey, the doktor said my gigi cantik! *lol*
The minor dental-surgery somewhat somehow alleviate the emotional turbulence I was having, though. Like a bait of diversion, more like. Anyway, on Friday started kerja balik after 2 days of hiatus (Wednesday & Thursday) and it’s just nice to distract yourself into works rather than melayan perasaan bodowh *sheesh*. With this dark state of mind, I think I can resume my reading on Stephen King’s “Bag of Bones.” Pembacaan buku ni before this terganggu sebab masa tu pun baru je habiskan “Pet Sematary” karya Stephen King; so I thought too many violence and dark stuffs back-to-back is too much IF THE STATE OF MIND IS IN SERENITY. Selain tu baru je habiskan siri trilogi “His Dark Materials” karangan Philip Pullman (I will update on this later!) and masa tu juga baru habis membaca Sidney Sheldon’s “Tell Me Your Dream” (Regina’s!).
But really, I have no mood on updating my blog. But I won’t take a bow. It’s the fact of life and should we not to embrace that? We just have to open eyes more to appreciate those who have been always appreciating and love you rather than being so melodramatic *sheesh, how many times, eh? haha*. Well, I’m an adult now. Who may look like a teensy-tween. But I can take care of myself. I’m looking forward to open new door and see what lies ahead. It maybe a life-changing experience.
P/s : Angie’s on W Magazine November issue (sans makeup); breastfeeding either Leon or Viv. Photographed by Pitt. It’s simple but full of life. Lesson learnt = embrace your basic instinct.