I cried the whole night alone in the room thinking about it. I tried to not make it so obvious because Mak was like eavesdropping. She sensed something went wrong when I came back from IPDA and busied myself with assignments without talking much to her. I cried and cried thinking about the name and about it. It makes my body shivered with sudden rush of melancholy and I feel headache and so weak. My friends and lecturer were asking about my sombre facade. I tried to fake smiles in front of them – I don’t want to cause any negative-aura yet again. But everytime I think about YOU, my heart just melted broken-hearted. If YOU were reading this, know that YOU were the best thing that ever happened to me but I guess this is sign from God. I can’t tolerate to be the second-best. As hard as I tried to confine my negative thoughts, I am just hopeless. I am destined to be alone.
And we meet, Which I’m sure we will
All that was there will be there still
I’ll let it pass and hold my tongue
And you will think that I’ve moved on…