Just finished being observed for 3rd time Science. This time, I taught ‘Constellation’ to 5 Uranus. Although generally I have received positive and good comments but still I failed to secure ALL 5 (the rating goes from1-5) for my observation! And what is more, neither my Lecturer nor my Guru Pembimbing gave any hints that I will be nominated for ‘Cemerlang’! It really makes me sad although all of these are so far merely based on assumptions and prejudices.
The Orion @ ‘The Hunter’
Rumor has it that by 3rd observation, lecturer should at least ask the protege whether he wants to be nominated as ‘cemerlang’ or not?! Well, rumor is just rumor. I compared my friends’ rating with me to my lecturer but she just smiled and asked whether the friend is being nominated for ‘RENTAS’ (it is the stage where ‘cemerlang’ candidate would conduct their classes in front of other Head of Departments and lecturers and being video-taped) or not and which lecturer observed the friend?! Whether the lecturer is a science lecturer or simply other lecturer???! But she just smile…Argh!!! I have become so paranoid to chase this.
The Ursa Major. ‘The Great Bear’
This situation make me ponder and it resembled a scene in Disney’s “Mulan”. Mulan asked herself whether her action to disguise as man was really to save her ailing father or was just trying to prove herself worthy. That’s what I am feeling now. Maybe I wanna achieve the ‘Cemerlang’ accolade because I want to prove to my family and my friends that I can make things right. For my father, I want to uphold his honor because he keeps repeating how nice it would be if I were to be a Cemerlang KPLI student; to my ex-banker colleagues and community, I want to prove to them that I’ve chosen the right path and will savor in this world.
Leo. ‘The Lion‘
The Virgo. A constellation as well as zodiac.
Being a teacher is not as easy as everyone thinks. It is not as easy as simply good in talking (well, for communication rating, I always obtained ‘5’). Ratings are evaluated in a lot of aspects such as lesson planning, teaching aids (‘alat bantu mengajar’), teacher’s professionalism and how to tackle pupils’ interest, the scientific skills exercised in the lesson and last but not least the moral values learned in each lesson. Perhaps, I push my envelope too much. Perhaps I have too high expectation to myself. Perhaps I am not cut for being a ‘Cemerlang’ student. I don’t know. That is sad.
Scorpius. ‘The Scorpion’.
For my 5 Uranus pupils, all of you have done your best ( I know you are reading these, right?). Sir really appreciates your cooperation. I will strive harder to give my very best in the next time, Insya Allah. And to sum up the observation, my lecturer wrote :
“Pengajaran dan pembelajaran anda semakin menarik, disampaikan dengan penuh penghayatan dan semangat. Penyediaan Alat Bantu Mengajar yang baik”
That is all????? *sigh*….. It makes me wonder.
And I guess no harm’s done in sharing with you guys the movie-snippet I took in You-Tube. For Closure (end of lesson), I showed the class to relate the constellation of Virgo with the Greek myth of Persephone & Hades. It was said the constellation Virgo which means The Virgin is visible in the sky when Persephone returns to her mother Demeter, The Goddess of The Earth from the wrath of Hades, God of Underworld. When Persephone comes back home, it is springs time because Demeter is happy. Do google for this Greek myth to find out more!