Tonight, I met up with Syafique Ghause and Syahrir and we went to have a late drink at Changloon! Like usual, Syafique never forgets me (while my friends now are all drifted apart) and manage to squeeze time to pay visit towards me; accompanied by his faithful lil’ brother!
It was a nice tete-a-tete with both of them since they can be considered seniors in this teaching world. Syafique and Syahrir share a lot of stories and reality prefaces in the REAL education world. Right from the politics, the cultures, the teaching-and-learning; all rounded up. From their stories, most problems derive from teachers-to-teachers relationships rather than teachers-to-pupils. Jealousy, cliques, gossipers, busybodies : and these elements are in TEACHERS. Well, teachers are also human, aren’t they? As an outsider, one may always has that naive perception (like I used to have) that TEACHERS ARE ALL SAINTS. Well, welcome to the real world, honey!
My excitement to meet Syafique and Syahrir was somehow hampered by a provocative attitude. Maybe it’s nobody’s faults. But I just can’t help feeling frustrated to know that when I am cooped up in the house doing nothing at all and FREE all the time, there is nothing. Zero. Nada. But when I am all out meeting friends (first, in Penang; second is this one); it’s like so many faulties! I do try to be a tolerable half of this entanglement but now it seems I cannot do it anymore! Maybe I am born to be aloof. I don’t like to be told or to be controlled. I don’t think I am cut for all these.
Maybe what the tarot card said about this year is true; that I will be out of luck in ‘intimate’ department this year. Well, no matter. What’s important is that tomorrow I maybe know the result of my posting. Kinda nervous. Of course, I don’t think I can sleep tonight since someone spoils that; maybe unintentionally but one can’t help to wonder why it always happens WHEN I ABOUT TO HAVE PEOPLE AROUND ME AS COMPANIES? Well, whatever. No matter.
In the end, I always have my alter-ego as my true confidante, aite? So sad. But it maybe true.