There are good times when I feel so strong that even knives will not crippled me. But there are often bad times when I stumble down and kowtow to emotions. I just hope that my faith will not deter amidst this loneliness. I am blessed with all the possible loves anyone could ever ask. But being human, I never satisfy. I feel bad for that. But I am still trying to adjust to it. It’s hard when you are always being pampered, over-protected and close-knitted with your family and then trying to adjust to not always become the priority. I hate myself for being that.
But I am handling this better than last time; when I was a novice. Experience is a great teacher. In spite many adamant and nonchalant door-knockers around me, I have always aspire to be the loyal one. To my God. To my religion. To my family. To my friends. And to my Love. I can never betray, Insya Allah. Although it is I who always bail out from relationships, but it is never I who betray. That is me. I really hope that this will last. But who knows. The Malaysian drama “Nur Kasih” (The Light Of Love) with its Islamic theme is really close to my heart. I am not the most pious but I am certainly not the most rebellious. It inspires me. And I aspire it.