I was quite taken aback. I never raise voice. I never scream. I never yell. But my concern is taken as childish and shunned without any sensitivity because of “tiresome.” If it were somebody else, I would have retaliated back. But I just control my shock and angst. I don’t know what is wrong with everything lately. Is this God’s sign? I am confuse and humiliated. Because I never thought a person I treasure would lash harshly at me like that. It makes me think. Do all my sacrifices and efforts worth for all these?
The sudden angst was soothed by an Al-Quran recital from Abdullah Fahmi. I don’t want to make matter worsen. But I do have plan. Ya Allah. Please guide me. I was heartbroken when the sudden reaction was lashed out but to put myself to your solace was the best remedy. For this, I plea to You; again. Guide me. For a choice not to be led by hatred or anger. But by blessing and serenity. From You.
I am no pious. But as a fragile human, I seek solace from God when I am in trouble. Ya Allah.