The moment I heard it, I felt pierced. I was shaken, my body weaken, my eyes watered. My breath becomes harden. To exhale and inhale the air feels suffocating. It haunts and echoes inside me. I cried. And cried as I read the lyrics I found in You-Tube. It seems illogical. It sounds surreal. But that’s what a short song with duration of 1 minute and 57 seconds did to me, tonight.
I first heard the song in Jejak Rasul 2010. I was curious about the short snippet of the end-credit music. I tried to google on it but proved to no avail. So, I abandoned the search. Until tonight. I was watching the TV1 “Lambaian Kaabah” and suddenly when the end-credit music appeared, the familiar song begun. I was petrified, stupefied, mortified. There was something magical about the song. It seeps into me…….
I guess I am now so intoxicated with the happiness I found from my relationships with other human beings. I am merely a fragile soul with delicate shields and brittle defenses. When I am blessed with bliss, I tend to forget You. I admit I am no religious nor a pious. Nonetheless, I tried to become a good Moslem like I what I am supposed to be but sometimes I am vulnerable to be goaded by temptations. Upon hearing the song and able to thread the lyrics of the song makes me so overwhelmed. I cried and cried and cried. How small and fragile I am.
The lyrics speak of my fragile self. Of my weaknesses. And how I implore Your forgiveness. When I read the chorus, my body becomes shaken and my eyes water. I pray Your Grace won’t fade away with me. Forgives my sins. Conceals my faults. Be gentle with me. Masya Allah! (.”)
God is the greatest
There is no deity but Him
The King, The Most Holy.
O Most Compassionate, have compassion on our weaknesses
O Forgiver, forgive our sins
O Concealer, conceal our faults
O Bestower of Honor, bestow honor on our Ummah
O Granter of Prayers, answers our prayers
O Gentle One, be gentle on us.