Some people will find it laughable. But it’s very suffocating. Angst, frustration and regret are all swirled together. I never experience any situation where I am so angry that I can merely cry. I always hear people say that but I never experience it until now. I was so highly anticipating it but when a new revelation emerges, I just feel like been cheated, hoodwinked and duped. So angry now that I can only cry.
In the pamphlet : seemingly like a darkish-magenta, right?
Ayah was so excited and insisted and keep repeating that I should bring him along. But when I trusted the supposedly “projection of wisdom”, sadly it proves to no avail. Of course as damage control, he could say it doesn’t matter but this is my virgin investment. Of course I am freaking angry and sad. It is I who will bear it. It’s not fair for me to just blame him. It is my fault as well to not really have a direction and simply trusted his direction. But, this is my virgin investment… I don’t know what to say.
The REAL facade : It’s so PINK!!! What have I done…….sigh..Although my face is “jambu” and petite and public will definitely affiliate me with the color, I am not a pinkish-lad! Is this a destiny? *Sad*
Maybe like Kat said, I have to embrace this faulty. Who knows I am going to really love it? But for now, I already think of re-painting it. A cruel decision for it which hasn’t even arrive yet, isn’t it? And re-painting will be so ever costly; that will create unbalance in budget for “other-recreational-purposes”. All, I can say to sooth my angry heart is that be patient and wait till it comes first. Although my face is considerably “jambu”(cutesy) and pint-size petite which easily make the public affiliate the pink color with my personality, I am not a pinkish-male. That’s why I am just furious and sad. I feel like I’ve been cheated. But I have no one to blame but myself- although part of me is blaming Ayah. It’s useless to pinpointing.
An angry emotion when a supposedly Dazzling Red which seemed like a darkish-magenta in the pamphlet is a twin version of Pink. The last thing I want is for people to notice me on the road or create an uproar; but I guess I am always meant to be in the hot spotlight; scrutinize and speculated by others. *Sigh with sadness*
P/S : I know Ayah was also stunned by that and try to make damage control by buying me laksa (my favorite) to ease the disturbed feeling- which of course is so apparent on my face. Thanks Ayah; but need time to embrace it. A virgin investment.