1st June 2011. The date that cements 27 years of me, inhaling and exhaling the air in this world; very still much alive and savouring all the blesses from God SWT. Alhamdulillah, that’s all I can begin and to sum up everything. At this juncture of life, I am really fortunate and really thankful and grateful for all the wondrous and whimsical colours in my life that I can hardly express in words. In this 27 years old, I’ve experience things that open my eyes and make my mind wiser and I’ve been given opportunities by ALLAH SWT to understand the real meaning of ups and downs in life. Very thankful. Alhamdulillah.
Last year wasn’t exactly a good one. I was in miserable state, in a relationship that was both a hybrid of lies and superficial. I was duped and fooled by the hedonistic desire of amour. It was devastating when the 2nd time you gave your all to commit, the failure hits you again. But I stood back, knowing a vermin needs no mourning from a precious person like me. So, I moved on with my life, dedicating my life to teach the kids whose innocences cheer my every day lives. And when you don’t expect, it will eventually knocks your door. I’ve dumped glasses and hope for none; when by God’s Will, I’ve found a diamond with glistening sparkles! Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.
As usual, my birthday isn’t welcomed with lavish parties because my family never do that. It’s always a close-knitted affairs and I don’t fancy any more than that, of course. It would be too weird. But anyway, on the eve of my birthday, my family was shocked by the news that Kak Naja, my cousin-in-law’s cousin (Abg Jie’s cousin) was warded in hospital due to that her cancerous affection is worsening and she could be possibly dying, Ya Allah! We pushed off to Penang General Hospital on that evening itself and reached at hospital around 9.30 P.M. and found Kak Nazirah was already there. Kak Naja was warded into anaesthetic department and dialysis was conducted to cleanse the kidneys. It was said that the infection has gone to urethra!
We waited there at Penang General Hospital until around 1.45 A.M., Abang Jie and Kak Yati arrived from Lumut; due to immense traffic jam at Bukit Merah. It was late and being Abang Jie, he persisted on the whole entourage to spend night at a hotel in Penang; so all of us went to Cititel Hotel – on courtesy of Abang Jie, of course.
On 1st June (which was on my birthday!), we went to see Kak Naja who Alhamdulillah had already gained consciousness! But still she was so weak and wires and tubes were being punctured over here and there. My heart sank and I nearly cried when I first saw her because as weak as she was, she kept smiling and wanted to entertain me. Ya Allah, please enlighten Kak Naja’s suffering. A few of her friends (Kak Naja is a microbiologist, anyway) saw her and bursts into tears. But overall, Alhamdulillah, she was already conscious! We waited until 6.00 P.M. and then pushed off back to Kedah.
Around 8.30 P.M., we arrived at ‘Restoran Bendang‘ at Kelubi, Jitra which is according to Ayah, is a local hot spot for people to dine. It was situated in a secluded place but the atmosphere at the restaurant was idyllic, nonetheless. Wooden complex with vast car-park and traditional interior designs, the restaurant is said to be a place for public commotion such as wedding ceremonies and many more. The dishes like the usual “Siakap 3 rasa” (3 flavoured siakap), “sotong goreng tepung” (floured-cooked calamari), “tom yam campur” (mixed tom yam), “Kailan sambal belacan” (kailan cooked with sambal belacan) were awesome; but of course still cannot challenge Bagan Lalang! Anyway, it was all Mak’s treat; thank you so much Mak!
On whole I guess, God SWT wants to give me good lesson for my birthday; wanting me to realize that health is important and to appreciate families and people around who love you so much. Alhamdulillah Ya ALLAH, for everything, I am thankful. And thousands of thanks to all my friends and pupils who wished me via Facebook (take me around 2 hours to reply to each of them personally; thanks!) and through SMSes (thanks, I heart you guys!); and also to my family and my loved ones; Alhamdulillah, I am grateful and honoured to have this Greatest Love of All. (,”)
I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children’s laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody’s searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs
A lonely place to be
And so I learned to depend on me
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone’s shadows
If I fail, if I succeed at least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can’t take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all
And if by chance that special place
That you’ve been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love