Being in Jitra, Kedah always inspire me to fathom into philosophical sides of me – spanning from smokes of memories, fragments of aspirations or embers of inspirations; rather than in Serendah, Hulu Selangor (which happens to be nearby KL) where I am much more inclined to devour on my social calendar and wanderlusts. Perhaps the serenity of paddy-field aura contributes to that, I don’t know – perhaps the silence of Northern night triggers that, I don’t know either. All I know, whenever I feel like I need to siphon-out, I will jot down.
Pondering back the life I am having now at this juncture, November 2011 makes me so immerse with thankfulness and gratefulness. I’ve been lucky enough to be loved. It sounds so cliche but appreciation and sincerest devotion are what really inspiring. Being a mere human, we can’t have it all. And it is impossible to have it all – let alone if our motives are transpired by greed or lust. Nonetheless, when one is moved by the love; the life seems complete and honesty brings bliss and bless to the people who loyally vow in the oath.
Getting a tattoo is painful; but with the pain comes the artistic etch on the skin. (,”)
I always seen in movies but I never thought it was meant for me. I have been duped by promiscuousness but luckily before things getting dirtier and heavier, I have been saved by angel in disguise. Those were heavier and darker times, but I survive them. What doesn’t kill you; make you stronger, no?
Content phase in life.
You know, to be given the chance to experience what life with love is – is the most beautiful thing. It’s not physical, it’s not superficial – it’s an honest, genuine and authentic emotion that creates glow in your life. The best thing to sum up what my life now is what Angie testified in an interview :-
“I feel sad for someone who has never known love. Love elevates. You know, Brad would joke about me having this conversation about love. Love? It’s such a funny word. Brad can find certain phrases of poetry for it. I’m terrible at it. But I know it means wanting the best for the people you love, putting their interests above your own, always. Love does that. Love is what you live for.”