Beautiful and meaningful songs always inspire me to boost myself and elevate myself to another level. Music and songs are inevitable in my life. Every nooks and crannies; every ups and downs of the curve of life is coloured with songs that reflect the current episodes of that chapter of my life. The song “I Was Here” composed by Dianne Warren for Beyonce really illustrates my aspiration and inspiration in this life. A life with a purpose.
When I decided to quit profession as an Assistant Relationship Manager/bank executive and became a teacher 3 years ago, I’ve make a promise to myself to dedicate myself immensely to this holy profession. To impart knowledge and to spread moral fibres to the greenhorns of Malaysian generations. I think with all these blesses and graces that ALLAH SWT has kindly shown me, I have to give back as a token of gratitude. And through this profession as a teacher, I think I’ve managed to achieve that aspiration.
Although my experience as a teacher is quite limited in comparison to other senior teachers, but the period of 3 years has taught me a lot of things. By becoming a teacher, I’ve become more sensitive towards the sociological taboos and plight of our society especially of those who dwell in rural & squatter. As a city child who never being forced to do labour work or planted paddies when I was small like those who were born in villages/country-sides, I’ve been spoilt by Mak & Ayah. Hence, I was never exposed to all these grey colours of life – the hardship and meagre financial of families….
By becoming a teacher, I have also witness and dealt with dramas that usually only exist in fabricated fictions. Parents attacking teachers; parents abusing children; parents raping daughters, etc. I remembered that when I was in the White-Collar world, these things were only read in newspapers; but now in this Education world, I am exposed to first-hands situations; and as icing to the cakes; sometimes, I myself encountered the case and found out by sniffing out from pupils like detectives….
Yes, I am a stern teacher but I would like to think that I am also a friendly teacher. I always train my pupils to understand me. There are times to chill and to be serious. And there are also boundaries of respect that my pupils and I must respect. But I also aspire to be someone that they can go whenever they have problems. I always make an effort to greet back pupils who make efforts to greet me. It’s a sense of respect I showed them because they have shown theirs to me. My aspiration is that I can make some differences in these pupils’ lives with my presence. Maybe through my teachings; through my casual advices; through my encouragements…..
Being a teacher is like being a humanitarian in education world. I am just grateful to ALLAH SWT for blessing me with this opportunity. Although in Malaysia, being a teacher is not glamorous (instead, teachers are perceived as low class strata in the professional hierarchy, I daresay); I never regret. My aspiration is to touch the hearts my pupils and make a difference in their lives..
And also, my aspiration is to touch the hearts of people around me; I hope that my presence in their lives will make a difference. I’d like to be remembered in a good ambiance when I died. Yes, then I know – my presence has make a difference. I was here.
I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I’ll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won’t forget
I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I’ve done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here
I want to say I lived each day, until I die
And know that I meant something in, somebody’s life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave
That I made a difference, and this world will see
I just want them to know
That I gave my all, did my best
Brought someone to hapiness
Left this world a little better just because
I was here…..