I am confuse and in a junction (not at yet a dead end). I have deliberating a few and already converge myself into several potential channels. But there are several problems arisen; and not to say that time is running fast!
The first one – the distance & costs. My first choice seemingly like perfect but the distance is considerably quite far. I have been advised that distance plays pivotal role in ensuring the convenience; and to ease the movements. The second choice is quite trustworthy and the distance is considered satisfying BUT my financial cashflow plan is quite over-budgeted. Nevertheless in this kind of thing, you can’t do with restricted cashflow, no? The more is merrier; the lesser is SCARIER! Really, I should have deep thought and ponder about this. Sigh.
The second one – am I really ready to this alone? I mean alone? Not everyone and even an alpha-male who seems so stocky and macho is willing to execute this alone if given a chance. BUT I guess that’s where my strength lies. The inner strength; the mind, soul and determination. It’s going to be a new experience and patience-challenging. And threading it alone. Amin, Ya Rabbal Alamin. I can.
Ayah did prayer during Hajj – courtesy of Mak.
The third one – the time. Will I be able to make it in the middle of the year? Or shall it be postponed to the finale phase of the year? Subject to circumstances. Amin. Sigh. Amin.
The beautiful building at Medina Al-Munawarrah, The City Of Light.
The questions swirl as a flawed human but there’s a voice in me saying that the doubts will always be there. Go with the flow. Tawakallah. Let whatever it is in the The Hand of Qada’ & Qadar. Just do it. To fulfill the aspiration. Before you close your eyes.
Mak, donning a black veil. This ain’t a Niqab. During Hajj.