My anticipation is quite high. So far, the projected cashflow is as per planned. If nothing could go wrong, by the end of the year I shall be able to visit, Insya ALLAH.
Alas……! I just had a conversation with Kak Mazidah, a colleague who went there last year and also about to perform Hajj this year. I asked her about the schedules of “winter Umrah” or the last year sessions. I was flabbergasted when she told me that this Ramadhan is the last session for Umrah as the Hajj will commence circa September and after that, Makkah will be closed for 3 months for cleansing and cleaning processes!
My heart sank. It means that my ambition to step footsteps there by the end of this year will never crystallized. I am crestfallen and taken aback, I must say. I have gone through a few obstacles – the first one is the emotional part (https://undomiel84.wordpress.com/2012/09/03/the-bride-of-the-red-sea-episode-iii-a-flawed-heart-cries/) & then the financial hiccup circa February; I had to pay my lawyers regarding my upcoming housing processes ( https://undomiel84.wordpress.com/2013/02/06/the-bride-of-the-red-sea-episode-vii-the-ambitious-glassheart-is-broken-cashflow-rhapsody/). Sigh….. I am sad. Every time I am about to breakfast or Iftar, I will have a little prayer that I can go there by the end of this year. It is very disheartening. But then if I were to look at the bright side; perhaps this is the way ALLAH SWT telling me that “I am still not ready”? That I still need to exercise patience and fathom more knowledge? Preparing myself mentally and physically? After all, this is NOT a vacation; it is an Ibadah.
Still, I won’t lose hope. I have yet call the agencies directly asking for the schedule. Who knows? “There can be miracles, when you believe.” Sigh.
The brochure magazine I took at the Headquarters early this year in January; prior to the cashflow fiasco in February due to payment to lawyers. Sigh…. “There can be miracles, when you believe.”