I have been restraining myself from commenting on Angie’s wedding to Brad Pitt although I knew a few friends tagged me as they know I am one of Angie’s biggest fans. We all know that the day will come when they already have 6 children together and when they got question like when will they get married like “Shrek & Fiona”; it is just matter of time before they hit the aisle, no? But then again, as a hardcore fan, I felt twinge of sadness. I am not being over-dramatic or harboring anything; I guess it is the feeling when your idol is moving into a transition phase of life. Hahahah! Well, no biggie; it’s just me, myself & I.
Why Angie? I have been her fan since my USM days in 2003; right when she adopted Maddox; and I began to discover her bizarre sexual fetishes and her instability of mind and then she carved her way into stability when she met Pitt and found solace. In addition, to know that she is also a Gemini; born in 4th of June; her sexual preferences; her in-depth reflections about life out there, away from her glamorous persona; has been making me feeling so identified with her. I felt like we were non-umbilical chords twins! LOL! These pieces of journeys are somewhat similarities to my own life. I am not going to delve into details for the privy eyes but I was a quite demented and twisted soul. Only through writings I can express myself. I had quite unusual taste of fascinations, etc. I remembered that Mak jokingly (I am not sure whether out of jokes or what) said that I had serious issue needed to be consulted to a psychologist! *Gasp!*
Nevertheless, now I am older, my mind has begun to stabilize. I have found solace in someone and I begin to differentiate and evaluate the pros and cons of every actions I take; although sometimes, the wild and rebellious heart still there. Only it is at its place now.
I used to be so unhappy with myself and my life; always aspiring and longing to do what others do and what I don’t do or have; but now I am happy with myself, embracing my flaws & find someone who found myself as desirable & attractive. I am not an ugly duckling, after all. Alhamdulillah, I feel happy.
So, for my idol Angie, congratulations! Always love your spirit and your quotes really inspiring for me. I always look up for the down-to-earth personality despite your beauty and fame. She always loves her mother and so am I. Definitely I will be very sad and touchy when one day, Mak passes away.
The wedding dress by Luigi Massi from Atelier Versace in the close-knitted 22 people wedding ceremony. Angie loves the label & this dress will serve to be another trendsetter after Grace Kelly’s.