I am not perfect. But I try my best to be. It is heart-breaking when someone you really hold dear to your heart; who has demonstrated utmost love is experiencing pain and try to distance away from you; with the intention of not wanting to be a burden and to let you concentrate with your studies.
I am not the type.Yes; I am quite playful, I am quite flirty, I am quite cheeky in terms of casual interactions. But when it comes to dedication, I will not back out from a commitment I have taken oath to. 2015 deemed to be a tough year for both of us. Mysterious illness and anxiety attacks as well as insomnia are taking toll. But, I will always be there. Don’t worry.
I am not the one who will ride with you only in the limousine. I don’t want that. I am the one who will assist you when you are crippled. I am the one who will wipe your tears when you cry in pain. I am the one who will nurse you back to your health if you let me. I am willing to do it. Why? Because you were there when I was nothing.
It is not about indebted. It is about an emotion that is in my deepest heart. It is the sincerity I hold dear to my heart. The song by Siti Nurhaliza “Jaga Dia Untukku” really breathes what I feel now. We’ll go through the rain together despite all odds. I aspire to demonstrate the loyalty as per Siti Nurhaliza as well as this beautiful song. Please, God.
Bersayap seribu biar detik menjadi laju
Langit pun mendengar
Jadi penawar mengusir debar jatuh ke dasar….”
(“Fly me away
With thousand wings so the time will go fast
The sky also hears my prayer
Becomes the rosary casting away the anxiety away from me….”)