I flew to Jitra, Kedah this morning from KLIA2, taking the 7.10 a.m. flight. I felt helpless to be in Selangor or Putrajaya – so nearby but I can’t do anything to help assuage the pain you are having – so, might as well find a solace in the Land of Peacefulness (Darul Aman) here; even if it is for the brief 2 days-weekend.
Sultan Abdul Halim Airport.
I have to admit that I am very affected by the revelation I had last night. When I get positive updates, I felt exhilarated a bit but when I hear setbacks, I am crestfallen. But, I cannot let that conquer my whole mind and emotion.
As an effeminate androgynous male (I have no qualm on admitting that; I am fairly embracing my nature), having full-volume hair on the head is somewhat a prime asset – it adds to the coquettish feature (as lame as it may sound). I never gone as much as bald except when I performed Umrah last year. But today I have decided to go bald fade (the No.3-cut; I don’t know how to put it in English because in Malay, you usually quip as that ‘Potong No.1, No.2, No.3 or NO.4’ in reference to the types of hair razor used) like what I did last year for my Umrah. It is not “Nazar”nor it is an oath or a promise.
But it serves as an act of my own hope that your deteriorating health will improve. This is not some kind of holy sacrificial deeds that related to Shirk (idolatry or polytheism) but this is just my way to accentuate my hope that I will go to extra miles – to help you getting better, Insya ALLAH. Deep down, I also hope that my Syawal Sawm are blessed my ALLAH SWT (today is already my 4th day!) and hopefully ALLAH SWT accepts that. They said a prayer whispered during Iftar has miracles. I hope my wishes are granted.
Produced in 1975, Marina, the little mermaid in Anderusen Dōwa Ningyo Hime was similar to the original version written by Hans Christian Andersen, unlike the Disney’s version. Her sisters sacrificed their hairs to be transformed into a dagger so that Marina can kill the prince.
I couldn’t help but to reminisce what I did today as per the original tragic story of “The Little Mermaid” written by Hans Christian Andersen (not the Disney’s happy ending version!). In the fable, the little mermaid’s sisters cut their hair and gave them to the Sea Witch to be transformed into a dagger, so that Little Mermaid can use the dagger to kill The Prince.
Hairs cut – for a dagger or a knife. Sacrifice. That is my symbol of hope, as well.
But of course for me, cutting the hair is just symbolic way to show my sincerity and my willingness for dedication and loyalty – as Moslem, we believe in the Power of ALLAH SWT. Amin, God bless.