Being adult, you can’t escape from dealing and facing with problems. They are practically swirling over you, and it’s up to you how to handle, manouvre and manage them. Either they eat you alive, or it’s the other way round where you are the boss. Everyone has his/her own special ways on how to handle stress. Some are being vocal while some embed deep in their hearts. As for me, I tell my problems to people I love and endeared most & when I really need to comfort myself, I have self-monologue and blogging/writing is one of therapeutic elements I do. That is why I love writing in English because Malaysians don’t bother to read a whole junk of English trivials; so I can practically write what I want (of course with some puns/innuendos intended). Imagine if you write in Malay Language? People will scrutinize every inches of your every words! lol!
There is a castle on a cloud,
I like to go there in my sleep,
Aren’t any floors for me to sweep,
Not in my castle on a cloud.
Today, I have been receiving quite a few setbacks news. Initially I felt like perusing every inches of them but I deleted them. I guess it will do to simply give innuendos. First, some bureaucracies pertaining property investment a.k.a. house loan application! I am quite frustrated with how Government is handling it, but hopefully it can be resorted via certain helps from connections of a dear hand, Insya ALLAH. This is a major problem. I will be in the losing end just because of some inefficient procedures. Oh, I hope not. Amin.
Next, the old TV has somehow stop functioning and goes defunct. Well, it’s about time though but well if I were to get a new one, it means another cashflow of “Kaching”. Some of the cash potions are segregated into allocations of special funds, so “cash-for-entertainment-and-floating” is scarce. But then again, we human always like that, isn’t it? We work hard, we earn hard and we lavish hard.
Then, I had a talk with Kak Nor, my Science mentor this morning. It happened accidentally as I gave her something from Hong Kong and our topic slipped to the place-I-yearn-to. She gave a few reputable names and she is herself is planning to go there this March. I felt excited to hear but deep inside I have to admit that the spiritual and financial are becoming vicious. I hope they won’t hinder my aspiration. People always say that Tawakallah will ease the way. God always works in the most mysterious ways, Insya ALLAH.
In life, we always want a life that is picture perfect. Free from problems and headaches. Free from evil-sayers and foul-mouths. But then if we look them at bright side, those barriers are the ones that mould us, characterized us into stronger soul, enriched with experiences, no? But I can’t deny that at this very moment, I am yearning a childish tranquil and carefree life , like the song “Castle On A Cloud”, sung by the character Cosette when she yearns for a lovely place in her dreams. That’s the fun part of being children; you don’t have to put up with scandals of the world. The naivety and innocence are the shields against trouble-hearts. Either way, music has great affinity in me. They speak my emotions in musical volumes.
I know a place where no one’s lost,
I know a place where no one cries,
Crying at all is not allowed,
Not in my castle on a cloud.